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Forum III Archive # 41

From: Mar 5, 1999

To: Mar 17, 1999

Page: 5 Of: 5



Gail -:- Ode to Maharaji -:- Sun, Mar 07, 1999 at 03:21:00 (EST)
__Helen -:- Ode to Maharaji -:- Sun, Mar 07, 1999 at 03:54:03 (EST)
__Nimrod Frost -:- Ode to Maharaji -:- Sun, Mar 07, 1999 at 05:16:16 (EST)
____Robyn -:- Ode to Maharaji -:- Sun, Mar 07, 1999 at 10:45:05 (EST)
__Robyn -:- Ode to Maharaji -:- Sun, Mar 07, 1999 at 10:28:42 (EST)
____RT -:- Ode to Maharaji, THE SORRY-JI -:- Sun, Mar 07, 1999 at 13:23:48 (EST)
______Gail -:- Ode to Maharaji, THE SORRY-JI -:- Mon, Mar 08, 1999 at 01:22:01 (EST)
__Mike -:- Author...Author!!!! :-) -:- Mon, Mar 08, 1999 at 15:17:18 (EST)

cp -:- a word with you... -:- Sun, Mar 07, 1999 at 03:18:17 (EST)
__Helen -:- a word with you... -:- Sun, Mar 07, 1999 at 03:59:06 (EST)
____cp -:- word with.. -:- Sun, Mar 07, 1999 at 05:10:18 (EST)
______Helen -:- word with.. -:- Sun, Mar 07, 1999 at 10:08:43 (EST)
________Mickey the Pharisee -:- word with.. -:- Sun, Mar 07, 1999 at 19:34:06 (EST)
__________Helen -:- word with.. -:- Sun, Mar 07, 1999 at 19:39:25 (EST)
____________Mickey the Pharisee -:- word with.. -:- Sun, Mar 07, 1999 at 19:54:46 (EST)
______________Helen -:- word with.. -:- Mon, Mar 08, 1999 at 07:14:19 (EST)
__Katie -:- a word with you... -:- Sun, Mar 07, 1999 at 08:23:26 (EST)
____Rick -:- a word with you... -:- Sun, Mar 07, 1999 at 14:02:30 (EST)
______cp -:- a word with you... -:- Sun, Mar 07, 1999 at 15:46:32 (EST)
______Katie -:- a word with you... -:- Sun, Mar 07, 1999 at 18:50:27 (EST)
__bill-Mickey the P. -:- a little history help please. -:- Sun, Mar 07, 1999 at 16:01:17 (EST)
____Mickey the Pharise -:- a little history help please. -:- Sun, Mar 07, 1999 at 19:31:58 (EST)

IronBear-Jon -:- Letter of apology -:- Sat, Mar 06, 1999 at 18:24:49 (EST)
__bill -:- Letter of apology -:- Sat, Mar 06, 1999 at 18:32:05 (EST)
____IB-J -:- Letter of apology -:- Sat, Mar 06, 1999 at 18:52:41 (EST)
______bill -:- Letter of apology -:- Sat, Mar 06, 1999 at 22:31:35 (EST)
________bill -:- Letter of apology -:- Sun, Mar 07, 1999 at 22:53:12 (EST)
__Jim -:- Hey, teach! -:- Sat, Mar 06, 1999 at 20:24:01 (EST)
____Robyn -:- Hey, teach! -:- Sat, Mar 06, 1999 at 21:11:36 (EST)
______Red -:- Hey, teach! -:- Sat, Mar 06, 1999 at 22:15:50 (EST)
____IB-J -:- Hey, teach! -:- Sat, Mar 06, 1999 at 21:21:40 (EST)
______Gerry -:- Hey, teach! -:- Sat, Mar 06, 1999 at 21:41:42 (EST)
____Gail -:- Jimmy, you are a hell-raiser! -:- Sun, Mar 07, 1999 at 03:31:29 (EST)
__Sir David -:- Letter of apology -:- Sat, Mar 06, 1999 at 21:03:45 (EST)
____IB-J -:- Letter of apology -:- Sat, Mar 06, 1999 at 21:40:03 (EST)
______Sir David -:- Letter of apology -:- Sat, Mar 06, 1999 at 21:57:13 (EST)
________Gerry -:- Letter of apology -:- Sat, Mar 06, 1999 at 22:14:02 (EST)
______cp -:- Post above 'word w/ you' is 4U -:- Sun, Mar 07, 1999 at 04:10:15 (EST)
__Katie -:- Letter of apology -:- Sat, Mar 06, 1999 at 22:21:20 (EST)
____IB-J -:- Letter of apology -:- Sun, Mar 07, 1999 at 00:33:40 (EST)
______Nimrod -:- Letter of apology-up YOUR ass -:- Sun, Mar 07, 1999 at 02:10:15 (EST)
__cp -:- re Feb post -:- Sun, Mar 07, 1999 at 16:41:57 (EST)
____ib-j -:- re Feb post -:- Sun, Mar 07, 1999 at 22:26:20 (EST)
______Miloochie -:- Just one minute... -:- Mon, Mar 08, 1999 at 00:30:04 (EST)
________Helen -:- In defense of the forum -:- Mon, Mar 08, 1999 at 13:57:44 (EST)

Popeye -:- On M's contradictions -:- Sat, Mar 06, 1999 at 17:01:22 (EST)
__Popeye -:- Followup..Is it too obvious? -:- Sat, Mar 06, 1999 at 17:07:57 (EST)
____Olive Oil/Helen -:- Followup..Is it too obvious? -:- Sun, Mar 07, 1999 at 03:46:51 (EST)

Jim -:- Holiday Magic -:- Sat, Mar 06, 1999 at 14:13:25 (EST)
__Happy -:- Just want to say -:- Sat, Mar 06, 1999 at 14:59:11 (EST)
____Katie -:- To Jim and Happy -:- Sat, Mar 06, 1999 at 17:06:38 (EST)
__SHP -:- Holiday Flagellate -:- Sat, Mar 06, 1999 at 15:08:26 (EST)
__barney -:- Viral Worm - Warning Gross! -:- Sat, Mar 06, 1999 at 15:35:16 (EST)
__Rick -:- Holiday Magic -:- Sat, Mar 06, 1999 at 15:53:01 (EST)
____SHP -:- right up to the plate -:- Sat, Mar 06, 1999 at 17:38:54 (EST)
______Rick -:- right up to the plate -:- Sat, Mar 06, 1999 at 18:08:44 (EST)
________SHP -:- right up to the plate -:- Sat, Mar 06, 1999 at 20:00:59 (EST)
__________Jim -:- please forgive Rick, shp -:- Sat, Mar 06, 1999 at 20:05:00 (EST)
____________SHP -:- If you take the words away,Jim -:- Sat, Mar 06, 1999 at 20:09:59 (EST)
______________Jim -:- Okay, let me ask YOU, shp -:- Sat, Mar 06, 1999 at 20:14:47 (EST)
________________SHP -:- individuality is amazing -:- Sun, Mar 07, 1999 at 22:00:26 (EST)
__________________Mike -:- ok shp, what IS your experince -:- Mon, Mar 08, 1999 at 11:26:09 (EST)
____________________SHP -:- I don't show my treasure to -:- Mon, Mar 08, 1999 at 22:42:15 (EST)
______________________Mike -:- typical -:- Tues, Mar 09, 1999 at 17:20:46 (EST)
____________________SHP -:- typically sensible -:- Wed, Mar 10, 1999 at 02:40:48 (EST)
____Rick -:- Sorry -:- Sat, Mar 06, 1999 at 20:00:50 (EST)
______Jim -:- Sorry, I'm 'sorry', not Rick -:- Sat, Mar 06, 1999 at 20:01:50 (EST)
__Helen -:- Holiday Magic -:- Sat, Mar 06, 1999 at 16:19:51 (EST)
__Denise -:- Holiday Magic -:- Sat, Mar 06, 1999 at 18:48:55 (EST)
____Jim -:- My first reply -:- Sat, Mar 06, 1999 at 19:23:04 (EST)
____Jim -:- My second reply -:- Sat, Mar 06, 1999 at 19:37:03 (EST)
______Sandra -:- My second reply -:- Mon, Mar 08, 1999 at 21:10:01 (EST)
____Jim -:- My third reply -:- Sat, Mar 06, 1999 at 19:57:50 (EST)
______bill-denise doesn't see -:- her insult I bet. -:- Sat, Mar 06, 1999 at 23:03:53 (EST)
______cp -:- Why Jim.... -:- Sun, Mar 07, 1999 at 04:44:25 (EST)
____Sir David -:- Holiday Magic -:- Sat, Mar 06, 1999 at 21:40:09 (EST)
____g's mom -:- read all Jim's replies -:- Sun, Mar 07, 1999 at 13:45:23 (EST)

Brian -:- Fixed Lane link - JM note -:- Sat, Mar 06, 1999 at 09:40:19 (EST)
__Jim -:- A Radhasoami forum's there -:- Sat, Mar 06, 1999 at 21:04:53 (EST)
____bill -:- A Radhasoami forum's there -:- Sat, Mar 06, 1999 at 23:39:55 (EST)
______gerry -:- This relates to Iron Bear and -:- Sun, Mar 07, 1999 at 13:04:56 (EST)

Helen -:- Path of total surrender -:- Sat, Mar 06, 1999 at 08:00:19 (EST)
__JW -:- Path of total surrender -:- Sat, Mar 06, 1999 at 12:46:33 (EST)
__Miloochie -:- Path of total surrender -:- Sat, Mar 06, 1999 at 14:10:48 (EST)
____Helen -:- A sad and telling memory -:- Sat, Mar 06, 1999 at 15:17:43 (EST)
____Gail -:- Path of total surrender -:- Sun, Mar 07, 1999 at 03:45:47 (EST)

AE -:- He's hardly Mr Popular -:- Fri, Mar 05, 1999 at 23:57:52 (EST)
__bill -:- really good AE (nt) -:- Sat, Mar 06, 1999 at 01:02:14 (EST)
____AE -:- Thanks Mr Maharaji -:- Sat, Mar 06, 1999 at 09:38:12 (EST)
______Happy -:- Your site -:- Sat, Mar 06, 1999 at 14:55:53 (EST)
__Katie -:- You're linked -:- Sun, Mar 07, 1999 at 09:25:34 (EST)

Denise -:- To SHP -:- Fri, Mar 05, 1999 at 14:51:00 (EST)
__SHP -:- e-mail address -:- Fri, Mar 05, 1999 at 18:17:32 (EST)
____bill -:- shp -:- Sat, Mar 06, 1999 at 01:04:51 (EST)
__Zac -:- To Denise -:- Fri, Mar 05, 1999 at 21:44:21 (EST)
____SHP -:- Zac and Denise -:- Fri, Mar 05, 1999 at 21:57:13 (EST)
______Zac -:- I don't believe I'm doing this -:- Fri, Mar 05, 1999 at 22:14:42 (EST)
________SHP -:- believe it or not -:- Sat, Mar 06, 1999 at 10:26:45 (EST)
__________Zac -:- Did I mention force feeding? -:- Sat, Mar 06, 1999 at 12:23:06 (EST)
____________SHP -:- Zac, you implied.... -:- Sat, Mar 06, 1999 at 12:47:57 (EST)
______________Zac -:- Zac, you implied.... -:- Sat, Mar 06, 1999 at 12:54:11 (EST)
________________SHP -:- Zac, you implied.... -:- Sat, Mar 06, 1999 at 13:19:30 (EST)
__________________Zac -:- Fine I accept that. (nt) -:- Sat, Mar 06, 1999 at 13:24:41 (EST)
____________________SHP -:- Fine I accept that. -:- Sat, Mar 06, 1999 at 13:34:31 (EST)
______________________Zac -:- Fine I accept that. -:- Sat, Mar 06, 1999 at 14:19:36 (EST)
________________________SHP -:- Whatever you look for... -:- Sat, Mar 06, 1999 at 14:35:46 (EST)
__________________________Zac -:- Whatever you look for..really? -:- Sat, Mar 06, 1999 at 15:07:08 (EST)
____________________________SHP -:- Whatever you look for..really? -:- Sat, Mar 06, 1999 at 15:16:35 (EST)
______________________________Zac -:- Off to the store. Later (nt) -:- Sat, Mar 06, 1999 at 15:19:44 (EST)
______Denise -:- SHP and Zac -:- Fri, Mar 05, 1999 at 22:21:13 (EST)
________Miloochie -:- Denise...before you sleep... -:- Fri, Mar 05, 1999 at 22:40:54 (EST)
__________SHP -:- car stories -:- Sat, Mar 06, 1999 at 10:59:42 (EST)
____________Robyn -:- car stories -:- Sat, Mar 06, 1999 at 12:09:44 (EST)
________Zac -:- The Perfect Master Theory -:- Fri, Mar 05, 1999 at 22:43:19 (EST)
__________Robyn -:- The Perfect Master Theory -:- Fri, Mar 05, 1999 at 23:11:43 (EST)
____________Helen -:- Blue Light Special at Kmart -:- Fri, Mar 05, 1999 at 23:31:55 (EST)
______________Robyn -:- Blue Light Special at Kmart -:- Sat, Mar 06, 1999 at 00:33:48 (EST)
______________Jerry -:- Blue Light Special at Kmart -:- Sat, Mar 06, 1999 at 09:39:41 (EST)
__________bill -:- gadzooks -:- Fri, Mar 05, 1999 at 23:56:37 (EST)
____________Zac -:- Easy Guys & Gals -:- Sat, Mar 06, 1999 at 08:32:21 (EST)
______________Zac -:- Furthermore..... -:- Sat, Mar 06, 1999 at 08:57:31 (EST)
______________Helen -:- Easy Guys & Gals -:- Sat, Mar 06, 1999 at 15:21:38 (EST)
____________Jim -:- pet peeve time - Bill -:- Sat, Mar 06, 1999 at 13:45:01 (EST)
______________SHP -:- point of order -:- Sat, Mar 06, 1999 at 13:56:32 (EST)
________________Happy -:- never a blue man -:- Sat, Mar 06, 1999 at 14:54:51 (EST)
__________________SHP -:- My friend Jim Bush was blue -:- Sat, Mar 06, 1999 at 15:37:51 (EST)
______________bill -:- jeeze -:- Sun, Mar 07, 1999 at 00:51:03 (EST)

Happy -:- God collects watches -:- Fri, Mar 05, 1999 at 06:56:16 (EST)
__Jerry -:- God the hyprocrite -:- Fri, Mar 05, 1999 at 09:58:18 (EST)
____Jim -:- God collects hypocrites -:- Fri, Mar 05, 1999 at 11:24:51 (EST)
__Freewheeling -:- God collects watches -:- Fri, Mar 05, 1999 at 11:10:01 (EST)
____Happy -:- Omega Seamaster Cosmic -:- Sat, Mar 06, 1999 at 15:04:10 (EST)
__Annie -:- God collects watches -:- Sat, Mar 06, 1999 at 20:17:07 (EST)
____Jim -:- Don'y worry, Annie -:- Sat, Mar 06, 1999 at 20:47:06 (EST)
____Katie -:- To Annie - Help? -:- Sat, Mar 06, 1999 at 22:35:21 (EST)
____Robyn -:- God collects watches -:- Sun, Mar 07, 1999 at 10:10:10 (EST)
____eb -:- To Annie -:- Sun, Mar 07, 1999 at 14:33:59 (EST)
______Helen -:- To Annie -:- Sun, Mar 07, 1999 at 17:58:39 (EST)
____Gail -:- Annie: Get your Gun! (long) -:- Sun, Mar 07, 1999 at 21:32:55 (EST)
______Miloochie -:- Wow, Gail...well done! (nt) -:- Sun, Mar 07, 1999 at 21:42:45 (EST)
________Gerry -:- Wow, Gail...well done! -:- Sun, Mar 07, 1999 at 22:02:02 (EST)
______g's mom -:- Gail, wonderful post! (nt) -:- Sun, Mar 07, 1999 at 22:13:58 (EST)
________cp -:- Print Gails post -:- Mon, Mar 08, 1999 at 06:13:04 (EST)
__MaryM -:- God collected my watch! -:- Tues, Mar 09, 1999 at 18:44:27 (EST)


Date: Sun, Mar 07, 1999 at 03:21:00 (EST)
From: Gail
Email: None
To: Everyone
Subject: Ode to Maharaji
Message:
To Maharaji (the dung-beetle man--perfectly round and covered in you-know-what):

You have set many people on an imaginary path to liberation. There is no path, no liberation, and no happiness in living life as a slave.

You once said, 'If man keeps cutting away at the root of the branch where he is sitting, what will happen? Likewise, when a man keeps cutting away part of himself, namely his mind, what will happen?--insanity, you fool! You have made a lot of people sick.

Bhole Shri ...,

Gail C. MacDougall

QUIT, QUIT, QUIT
(to be sung to the tune of DANCE, DANCE, DANCE)

If gold toilettes were melted
And formed into a body,
Yours is not the one
That would be chosen.
What sculpturer could portray
Such an a-bom-in-ation?
Maharaji, all of me wails--

S S M, S S M, S S M, S S M (Satsang, service, meditation)
You lie about truth when you say
S S M, S S M, S S M, S S M
This BS has made us all pay.

You move in your big jet,
To promote your mindset.
Some will stay there forever.
You snatch up their money,
And brainwash them, honey.
Lib-er-ation?--NO, NEVER.

Your words are not wisdom.
Your tongue, it is twisted.
Your nic breath ain't holy--SURPRISE!
K A B I R ! Come here.
Don't plug up your ears.
Your fingers are stuck in your eyes.

Won't you Quit, Quit, Quit.
In one word, you are a shit.
PWKs are dogs in your cages,
Been programmed for ages.
Many won't stay much longer.
Their doubting grows stronger.
So, please quit, quit, quit.
Our minds long to see you quit.

Well, you trapped me for ages.
You turned all my pages.
With this Forum I got stronger.
You held me no longer.
So, please quit, quit, quit.
I long to see you quit.
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Date: Sun, Mar 07, 1999 at 03:54:03 (EST)
From: Helen
Email: None
To: Gail
Subject: Ode to Maharaji
Message:
Great song, Gail. Too bad we can't click to a video of M dancing with a soundtrack of you singing this!!
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Date: Sun, Mar 07, 1999 at 05:16:16 (EST)
From: Nimrod Frost
Email: None
To: Gail
Subject: Ode to Maharaji
Message:
Now I lay me down to sleep,
As precious Gail has creamed the creep.
Thank you Gail, for this and more.
Now I can rest, now I can snore.
Knowing that justice has been done,
Our precious Gail, has blasted the bum.

Thanks Gail, the Ode is really great!
And it helped take off some of the edge that I was feeling. Really appreciated it.
Speak to you soon.
Love,
Nim
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Date: Sun, Mar 07, 1999 at 10:45:05 (EST)
From: Robyn
Email: sundogs@hotmail.com
To: Nimrod Frost
Subject: Ode to Maharaji
Message:
Dear Nim,
I know you and Gail knew each other before so I hope I am not intruding but I just loved your little poem also. I guess I am just not good with that so I really enjoy it when other people do it so well. I use to write sonnetts, haikus, things with constraints. I'd labor over them, I think they came out well enough but not the same as just letting it flow.
Hey Jim, a bit of personal objectivity for you, seems like I have an issue with control, eh? See that is how it works, and then I work on it.
OK, I am going to go back into my corner now I Jim. See ya.
Love,
Robyn
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Date: Sun, Mar 07, 1999 at 10:28:42 (EST)
From: Robyn
Email: sundogs@hotmail.com
To: Gail
Subject: Ode to Maharaji
Message:
Dear Gail,
That was so good! Right up there with Larkin and RT. Thanks. Sounds like it really helped you to write it too. I know it is hard after so many years but I am glad you desided to get out and face life.
Love,
Robyn
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Date: Sun, Mar 07, 1999 at 13:23:48 (EST)
From: RT
Email: OMM
To: GAIL
Subject: Ode to Maharaji, THE SORRY-JI
Message:
Hi Gail,

...listening to memories of the golden years, eh? When a man was a devotee, all the women were gopis and the kids were the ex-generation? Ah, the 70's and 80's, when we spent our fortune on Bliss...not much to show for it tangible-except the mansions he owns. What a senseless accomplishment.

Nice going - a collection of rededicated songs is due.

Hail 2 Gail, she told the tale!

RT
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Date: Mon, Mar 08, 1999 at 01:22:01 (EST)
From: Gail
Email: None
To: RT
Subject: Ode to Maharaji, THE SORRY-JI
Message:
Thanks for the compliments, guys.
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Date: Mon, Mar 08, 1999 at 15:17:18 (EST)
From: Mike
Email: None
To: Gail
Subject: Author...Author!!!! :-)
Message:
Well done Gail!
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Date: Sun, Mar 07, 1999 at 03:18:17 (EST)
From: cp
Email: None
To: Iron Bear
Subject: a word with you...
Message:
First, the new thread is because this machine keeps stalling while it is bringing up the index. 'New Treads' is easy to get to because it is bookmarked...

Anyway- about your letter of apology. I am one that found your post a few weeks ago not to my liking.

It wasnt anything that you said in particular, but it was your attitude that I didnt like.

The peanut gallery on this forum might slam you for the stuff you were saying as being wacky. I dont feel like that. but....

Assuming the stuff is feasible, the trouble I have with your basic attitude is that you seem to assume that the experiences of manifestation and/or visits from various dead persons is a good thing.

It seems like you want to get milage out of a quality of 'strange but true.'

Since you are a teacher of some kind, have you ever worked in a Mash Unit? In California, the Mash Unit operates as a unit of healers/physic surgeons that cater exclusively for the healers and teachers working with the public. The healers that work on the healers in the public arena mostly focus on INFLATED SPIRITUAL EGOS.

The whole trend towards Prosperity Work and the manifestation work is creating huge casualties. Know why? because there is a materialistic warp in these levels of so called spiritual work.

It involves questions of Physic Hygiene. Is it spiritually healthy to use ones powers of manifestation to satisfy ones appetite for accomplishment? Is it spiritually ethical to develope these powers and then offer to show/teach enable others to do the same?

There is some interesting research done about Christ. It seems that it was the norm in his time to do healings and exorcisms. Many people in his time did such work. It was no big deal. What was a big deal was Christs intent.

What bothers me about how you sounded when you were posting earlier was that you seemed to get a rush out of announcing that such things were possible. This made it that the focus was more on IF it was possible or not, rather than where your inner motives came from.

From what I know about Christ, he did not perform any miracles or manifestations unless the person or people were very ripe to take in not only what he had done, but the inner sactum from which he did the deeds.
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Date: Sun, Mar 07, 1999 at 03:59:06 (EST)
From: Helen
Email: None
To: cp
Subject: a word with you...
Message:
And I would doubt Christ wanted people to go around manifesting Cadillacs for themselves in His name. I sort of got the idea from the Bible that if you were a good person and trusted God your needs would be provided for. I didn't see anything about Cadillacs in there. Red Cameros, maybe.

I gotta agree with you, cp, I find most of that prosperity stuff unsavory.
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Date: Sun, Mar 07, 1999 at 05:10:18 (EST)
From: cp
Email: None
To: Helen
Subject: word with..
Message:
Helen,- I know. One time I arrived at a meeting hall the day after a prosperity ritual had taken place. Very wierd vibes.
At the risk of sounding biblical, one of the temptations in the bible was when the so-called devil offered Jesus the possibiliy of manifesting anything that he would have desired, the world in fact. Jesus did not take him up on the offer. I think later the angels came and gove him what he NEEDED.

What gets me is that some teachers are exploiting the tendency that people have to recogneze their materiealism and change it. The exploitation comes in because the teachers are just substituting a new agey concept of spiritual materiealism for the crass kind.

Like the classic used car salesman.
In fact, I know poeple who never play lotto because they feel that the money is subtly tainted because it is collected from a gambling impluse.

Holy cow- this post makes me sound like tammy.
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Date: Sun, Mar 07, 1999 at 10:08:43 (EST)
From: Helen
Email: None
To: cp/Katie
Subject: word with..
Message:
cp, I agree. I'm not a Christian but I think Jesus' attitude about loving money was pretty clear. That's a great example you gave about how Satan tried to tempt him.

I do not think it is necessarily bad to want money and things, I just find it a turn off when people use Jesus' name and other spiritual concepts to try to get money. It would be so much more honest for them to just say 'I want this Cadillac, or I want this house or this money'. IMO, they should leave God and Jesus out of it.
We all know how folks can distort scriptures to support their own agenda, as in the way the premies always quote the Bible passages about the 'living waters' or 'the light within'. etc. Jean Michel's web site has a great section (called 'the knowledge session' that gives the real way these Biblical passages were intedned) I wonder if Fr. Mickey wrote it? It's excellent.
People can ask for stuff, but like Katie, said, maybe they should be a little humble about it. It just seems kind of crass to ask God for extras. I can see asking for the basics, like if you are unemployed or hungry or your kid needs medicine. Or I can see asking God for strength to accomplish some goal. But to just out and ask God for a Cadillac, that's pretty wild to me.
If there is a God, I should hope He or She would have better things to do than giving Cadillacs to someone who probably already has more than enough. There are people (millions) who don't even have a meal to eat today, much less a Cadillac.

A lot of folks put money before relationships and family, and I think that's bad too.

So there goeth my very stringent opinions on things,
Love
Helen
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Date: Sun, Mar 07, 1999 at 19:34:06 (EST)
From: Mickey the Pharisee
Email: None
To: Helen
Subject: word with..
Message:
Yes, I take the blame for the exegesis on JM's site. :-)
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Date: Sun, Mar 07, 1999 at 19:39:25 (EST)
From: Helen
Email: None
To: Mickey the Pharisee
Subject: word with..
Message:
I thought that was you, Mickey. It was so well done. I think it's a great service to get us to look at this package we were sold and to see how things were twisted around in order to sell it.

What is your perspective on the idea of making your own prosperity or manifesting prosperity (very popular in new age circles today)? Do you have an opinion about it? What do you think Jesus' attitude was toward the love of $--from what you know about Jesus in your studies?. And, Father, what did you think of the Monica interview (just kidding--hee hee)

Take care

Helen
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Date: Sun, Mar 07, 1999 at 19:54:46 (EST)
From: Mickey the Pharisee
Email: None
To: Helen
Subject: word with..
Message:
I'm not a big fan of any New Age practices, but this prosperity treatment stuff has been around for a while; I know that some of the Religious Science groups were doing that stuff in the 1970's. There is also a Theology of Prosperity movement among Evangelical and Fundamentalist Christians which I also find disgusting (and heretical, actually). It is a form of Calvinism, in which those in God's favour are rewarded with wealth. These people also claimed that they deserved all the world's wealth since they (Christians) were God's children and since God really owns everything, they, as God's heirs, really own everything. Then, there are the real sickos like Robert Tilton who claims that God is just waiting to shower you with wealth (I almost said gold, but that would be vulgar) but you must put up a seed of faith. So, send in a seed of $1000.00 and God will reward you. These are not things that Jesus said; there is nothing in the Gospels where he claims you're gonna get the big bucks by following him. He told one man to sell all he had and give it to the poor. Jesus wanted to bring about the Reign of God and wanted to meet everyone's needs, not everyone's greed. I did not watch the Monica interview nor read anything about it. I bought the new CD by XTC and it is taking up my leisure time.
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Date: Mon, Mar 08, 1999 at 07:14:19 (EST)
From: Helen
Email: None
To: Mickey the Pharisee
Subject: word with..
Message:
Thanks, Mickey. I kinda had the feeling Jesus wouldn't cotton to this new agey greed stuff. I kinda had a feeling you weren't a Monica kinda guy. I feel so cheap now that I watched that rubbish...forgive me, Father!!!!

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Date: Sun, Mar 07, 1999 at 08:23:26 (EST)
From: Katie
Email: None
To: cp
Subject: a word with you...
Message:
Hi cp -
You wrote:
Is it spiritually healthy to use ones powers of manifestation to satisfy ones appetite for accomplishment? Is it spiritually ethical to develop these powers and then offer to show/teach enable others to do the same?

I think these are really good questions to consider (although I don't have the answers to them). Also, as you said, people's INTENTIONS in doing these things are very important. I know several people who work with these powers of manifestation, but these people always put in a clause about it being for the good of all. In other words, if they're asking for something specific, they add a clause which might say something like 'I want X, but only if what I want is best for me and all concerned.' In my opinion, asking for non-specific things like healing, clarity, and right direction can be a lot more productive, even if the desired manifestation might not be exactly what you think you want at the time.

Just my thoughts - I liked your post.

Take care,
Katie
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Date: Sun, Mar 07, 1999 at 14:02:30 (EST)
From: Rick
Email: None
To: Katie
Subject: a word with you...
Message:
Hi Katie,
Thanks again for remembering to send pictures of Kira.

Say, I thought the kind of stuff in your post gave you the 'willys'. I hear so much of this around me that I thought I'd comment on it. Just my two cents:

Asking for stuff to manifest (even general stuff like healing) pre-supposes there's a man or woman in the sky with a request department. How do you figure out the prerequisites for getting stuff? How does one know why some stuff is granted and other stuff isn't? Is it just that the person in the sky knows what's best for us, and then they grant that stuff and withhold the rest?

So, for instance, the people starving in Africa are getting what's best for them? Is this possible?

I think it's a new-age notion that whoever or whatever is doling out the goodies isn't doing a real botch job. Take John K., for instance. He specifically asked that his beautiful hair not fall out, but it did. Is there some imaginable reason that this could be good? Look, my hairline is slowly inching back, and I can tell you there's nothing good about this.

I think the reason the new-age qualifies its requests for goodies, is to alleviate themselves of responsiblity. That way you can ask for something in a tricky way that you won't be making a mistake.

Like, 'Give me that promotion I want, but only if it won't go to my head'. Like the big guy or gal in the sky is supposed to take care of that for you? I don't think it works like that. If you get a promotion at work, and now you're a bigshot, YOU have to see it doesn't go to your head.

I think one just has to wish for what they want, do what they can to get it (within one's integrity) and then take the RISK that it will work out. I can't see how the risk can be removed or mistakes and tragedies can be rationalized as 'for the best'.
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Date: Sun, Mar 07, 1999 at 15:46:32 (EST)
From: cp
Email: helen & katie
To: Rick
Subject: a word with you...
Message:
If I sounded like a Christian in the ususal sense of the word, let me state here that I am not one of those. In fact I have a acidic reaction to people who quote scripture.
It must have been the late hour last night that dredged up that example. Though I think it fits.

As for manifesting, what Katie says is true. Maybe I just regard prosperity training as wierd. Dont tell those guys down below ( like jerry, he's on my case at the moment)-because it could be seen as hypocritical. but I do ask for things.
I just ask the day and the night sky, and any biengs or higher powers who may be online listening , for clarity on what needs to happen and , and if it would be good for me (and wont drag me further into some new improved illusion) then by all means GIVE it to me or give me access to how to get it- and/or understanding of the situation and alternatives please. If they (the higher beings) seem stuck for an response, I go ahead and suggest a few scenarios for them to hash over and come back to me for the most workable one.
And furthermore, if I am not Supposed to have it, then what I do want is verification of what I am to do instead.
I work for stuff real hard , but sometimes the needs outstrip my material plane capacity. Besides, I dont regard it as a rule of thumb that everything has to be fused to the physical plane or logic. But i know that one rule of thumb is a prerequisite humility - because I have manifested some completely ridiculous stuff that has taken me years to retrace my steps through a Maya maze.
So why do I sound like I am being hypocritical? Let me think while I type...........Well maybe its because I think it is wrong to make a business out of manifesting or teaching manifesting,,,,,,,why ? ....mmmm wait its coming.........Ah! It must be something about that it could result (and does result) in people bypassing real growth , because they are able to manifest. There is a sort of gratification level there that never feels right.
You know, how people jump on the new age bandwagon and really have no clue of their inner life and get glassy eyed because they have learned to manifest.
Shees, I had to work hard to figure it out. Back in my day........
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Date: Sun, Mar 07, 1999 at 18:50:27 (EST)
From: Katie
Email: None
To: Rick
Subject: a word with you...
Message:
Hi Rick -
I'm not sure if I can explain my attitude on this subject to you, especially since I'm not completely clear on it yet :). Also, I don't have much experience with it at all, although I do know people that do. I don't think that asking for things necessarily presupposes the existence of a man or woman in the sky with a request department. To me, it's always been a matter of clarifying my own goals, and having the thing I'm asking for be very important to me. This usually comes when I'm pretty desperate. That's why the example of your hair falling out (I'm ASSUMING that you're not in total desperation over that) is different.

You wrote:
So, for instance, the people starving in Africa are getting what's best for them? Is this possible?

I'm glad you brought this up. A lot of the things I 'ask' for are related to situations like this, not my own personal situation. I don't know if it does any good or not, but it does strengthen my own desire and ability to do what I can to help and not get caught up in stuff that's not important (again, like my hair falling out.) The reason that a lot of the stuff around the place where you live gives me the willies is that the big picture (like people starving in Africa) doesn't seem to be all that important there. But some of the people who come to the place where you live are probably very concerned about things like that, and maybe going there helps them to do something to help. You'd know this better than I would.

You wrote:
I think one just has to wish for what they want, do what they can to get it (within one's integrity) and then take the RISK that it will work out. I can't see how the risk can be removed or mistakes and tragedies can be rationalized as 'for the best'.

Well, I can certainly see that a lot of the mistakes I have made in my life have been 'for the best', although they did NOT appear that way at the time. (I don't know about tragedies). And you're right about taking the risk, and that it can't be removed, because I don't think we can really KNOW that what we're doing is 'right' until we do it. Hence the old saying 'Be careful what you ask for because you might get it.'

You can probably tell that I'm working through some of these ideas, and everything is said is IMHO with a grain of salt (or maybe with a couple of pounds of salt :).

Love,
Katie

P.S. Glad you liked the pictures of the beautiful Miss Kira, although I must tell you she was QUITE disappointed in Freddy's reaction to them, and would like to get her paws on him and teach him a few things. (You know how these internet romances go sometimes...) She did appreciate your words about her, though - purrrr.

Love
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Date: Sun, Mar 07, 1999 at 16:01:17 (EST)
From: bill-Mickey the P.
Email: None
To: cp
Subject: a little history help please.
Message:
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Date: Sun, Mar 07, 1999 at 19:31:58 (EST)
From: Mickey the Pharise
Email: None
To: cp
Subject: a little history help please.
Message:
cp wrote:'From what I know about Christ, he did not perform any miracles or manifestations unless the person or people were very ripe to take in not only what he had done, but the inner sactum from which he did the deeds.'

cp, I'm not sure of what you are saying here exactly; I don't use the term 'manifestations.' As far as the miracles attributed to Jesus in the Synoptic Gospels are concerned, it is my understanding that Jesus performed miracles as a means of illustrating the Reign of God and as a means of announcing its arrival (the Reign of God was not some beautiful feeling inside; it is the world which God had planned for humanity: a world without poverty, sickness, dispair, and injustice). It is true that there were many healers and exorcists around in that culture, but Jesus was considered particularly adept at such feats. But I think the big question is: did these miracles really happen; are they historically accurate accounts, or are they illustrations of spiritual principals? In the second century, Jesus was often depicted as a magician, and his miracles were considered acts of magic, manipulating certain forces by using the correct formula. An interesting book on this subject is 'The Clash of Gods; A Reinterpretation of Early Christian Art' by Thomas Mathews.
I don't know if this is responsive to your question regarding the miracles attributed to Jesus, but it gives you my take on the subject.
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Date: Sat, Mar 06, 1999 at 18:24:49 (EST)
From: IronBear-Jon
Email: ironbear-jon@juno.com
To: Everyone
Subject: Letter of apology
Message:
Hi all,
I downloaded the archives and read most of the responses to my last posting in Feb. Katie was right.. there's a LOT of anger in the ex-premie community, which underscores a trememdous amount of pain, of which I was not aware. My intention was certainly not to arouse any hostility. I had hoped that by sharing my experiences I would help someone.. even if it was only one person.
As I said before.. I am a teacher and a healer.. and my sole intent is to help. Guess I shoulda asked first though whether anybody wanted to listen to my experiences though huh?
To whomever it was that said they wanted to win the lottery.. people have done it. Write to the Robbins Institute in CA. They have documentation on file of three people who learned techniques (partly at Tony Robbins' seminars) and actually did it.
Anyway.. I am sorry for having aroused so much ire in the ex-premie community. I wish you all continued growth and healing on your spiritual path.
Blesssings,
Jon :-)
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Date: Sat, Mar 06, 1999 at 18:32:05 (EST)
From: bill
Email: None
To: IronBear-Jon
Subject: Letter of apology
Message:
Oh, we run hot some weeks, right now we are on a
sweetness and light kick so I dont think you need to apologize
for being yourself.

Maybe just be easy in the way you state things also.

So IB-J, do you think there is a self aware conciousness
that is not in a body?
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Date: Sat, Mar 06, 1999 at 18:52:41 (EST)
From: IB-J
Email: ironbear-jon@juno.com
To: bill
Subject: Letter of apology
Message:
Hi Bill,

You talking about God? I do think so yes.. something has been answering my prayers and making all of these wonderful things happen in my life. Jesus appeared to me a couple of years ago too.. so I know there's some greater consciousness 'out there'.

If you're talking about previously incarnate beings though.. yeah.. I do think they're self aware without bodies too. My wife died a few years ago and she is still aware of herself, both as her incarnation, and as her higher soul self. This will probably get me labeled an even bigger nut case, but every so often she comes into my meditations and talks to me. We've had some interesting dialogs about the nature of reality after we die.
Jon :-)
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Date: Sat, Mar 06, 1999 at 22:31:35 (EST)
From: bill
Email: None
To: IB-J
Subject: Letter of apology
Message:
What's her view on the after death activities?
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Date: Sun, Mar 07, 1999 at 22:53:12 (EST)
From: bill
Email: None
To: bill
Subject: Letter of apology
Message:
Perhaps this is too sensitive a subject.
If my wife died it would be...I don't know, Hope you are
somehow not in pain about it.
It is of course an interesting subject.
Which is why the question to your post.
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Date: Sat, Mar 06, 1999 at 20:24:01 (EST)
From: Jim
Email: None
To: IronBear-Jon
Subject: Hey, teach!
Message:
To whomever it was that said they wanted to win the lottery.. people have done it. Write to the Robbins Institute in CA. They have documentation on file of three people who learned techniques (partly at Tony Robbins' seminars) and actually did it.

What do you mean by 'people have done it'? Won the lottery? We know that. Or how about won the lottery after thinking that they would? We know a lot of people have done that too. Are you actually saying people have learned techniques to win the lottery from Robbins? Are you really that naive?

Don't you think you there are a ton of lottery winners out there more than willing to attribute their success to whatever prayers, good deeds or whatever they did before hand?

What kind of a teacher are you anyway?

And this thing about your wife talking with you in your meditation.... you sure it's her and not my Grandma Heller? The reason I ask is that since her death Grandma Heller never visits me. I figure she must be spending her time with someone. You know?
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Date: Sat, Mar 06, 1999 at 21:11:36 (EST)
From: Robyn
Email: sundogs@hotmail.com
To: Jim
Subject: Hey, teach!
Message:
Jim,
I am not surprized Grandma don't want to spend time with you, you are wretched!
Jon, I hope Jim doesn't piss you off, he has those damn blinders on and pretty bad eye sight to start with and can only see about an inch infront of his face so he has the major problem of short sightedness and no peripheral vision.
Personally I'd like to hear from you. I know I saw you posting before but don't think I read the threads, not enough time to be here. It might be hard to converse here though as Jim had the habit of pushing his beliefs or the fact that anyone doesn't agree with him, throughout any thread he doesn't approve of so I would understand if you didn't post personal experiences here. He means well but...
Love,
Robyn
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Date: Sat, Mar 06, 1999 at 22:15:50 (EST)
From: Red
Email: None
To: IB-J
Subject: Hey, teach!
Message:
Hello there Ib-J.I like your story about your house.I still remember a day 20 years ago when I sitting around with a friend talking about what we would 'really' like our futures to be.My dream for the future seemed impossibly optimistic considering my circumstances and then one day a couple of years ago I realized that most of them, maybe all of those dreams are are now a reality in my life now.Who says there's no magic?
Red
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Date: Sat, Mar 06, 1999 at 21:21:40 (EST)
From: IB-J
Email: ironbear-jon@juno.com
To: Jim
Subject: Hey, teach!
Message:
Hey Jim!
Are you on drugs or something? What I said is what I meant. People have visualized prosperity for themselves and have actully WON the lottery. There are two cases on file with the Robbins Institute in CA. Write to Tony if you don't believe me.

I'll tell you a story.. although I'm probably wasting my time.. but it's real. The first month I was married I was sitting in a basement apartment with my wife talking about our future. She asked where I'd want to live if I moved from Denver, and I told her AZ because I liked it here. I asked what kind of house she wanted.. and she said she didn't care but it had to be on at least an acre so she could have a horse.. and she wanted to have a circular driveway too. I told her that sounded pretty neat.. and that I wanted a Spanish style house with arched windows and entryways. We pretty much laughed it off.. as we were both unemployed at the time.. and had been out collecting pop bottles that day so we could buy a couple of boxes of macaroni and cheese for our dinner that night. We thought we'd never have a chance of getting such a place.. and we never spoke of it again. Then in '90 we were driving around Mesa looking for a home.. and I saw a place that looked really interesting, so I asked her to call our agent the next day while I was at work. He laughed when she called and he told her that it had just come on the market that morning and that he was going to call us. We were the first to put a contract on it.. and we bought it. It wasn't until we'd lived here for over two years that I remembered that conversation 15 years earlier. When I reminded her of it, we both were in astonishment. We were sitting in a Spanish style house on 1.2 acres of horse property.. and there was a circular driveway out front. Was it our destiny maybe? A miracle of some sort? Or perhaps we created the circumstances to bring it into our lives. In all honesty I'm still not sure.. but I do know that I've asked for other things since then and have gotten them. And I'm certainly nothing special. Anybody can do it, all you have to do is believe. THAT is how the folks won the lottery too.

Yes.. it is my wife I've spoken to.. and no.. I've not met your grandma. But I could speak with her if I wanted to. You could too if you'd meditate and open your mind. The inner self is where all of the answers are. But then again.. some people just don't want to know.. do they?
Jon
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Date: Sat, Mar 06, 1999 at 21:41:42 (EST)
From: Gerry
Email: None
To: IB-J
Subject: Hey, teach!
Message:
Man, you're fuckin' wacked! You've got the worst case of magical thinking I've ever heard. You talk to your dead wife, Jesus appears to you, you 'wished ' yourself the house you bought (fifteen years later.) And now I supposed you're all primed to win the lottery.

As for Tony Robbins, he is a con man and a fraud perhaps greater in scope and influence than the BM. He's a joke and an embarrassment in NLP circles. Richard Bandler, the originator of NLP, sued asshole Tony (and won) for ripping off his life's work. I'm not surprised you hold up a jerk like Robbins as some one to look up to.

The inner self is where all of the answers are. But then again.. some people just don't want to know.. do they?

If you're an example of ''knowledge of the inner self'' then no, I don't want it.
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Date: Sun, Mar 07, 1999 at 03:31:29 (EST)
From: Gail
Email: None
To: Sir James
Subject: Jimmy, you are a hell-raiser!
Message:
What an appropriate surname you have. I love it! Ferris Heigh and Jack Tuff are also good ones, eh?
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Date: Sat, Mar 06, 1999 at 21:03:45 (EST)
From: Sir David
Email: None
To: IronBear-Jon
Subject: Letter of apology
Message:
Why is it that the people who win millions on a lottery are always such undeserving cases who never know what to do with the money and end up becoming bored to death with their wealth?

Why don't real deserving people like myself ever win the lottery? I don't know what you're apologising for since I must have missed your previous posts. Now a lottery system though, that would be something else! How do you do it? Pray? I do know a good system to win certain lotteries but you need several million Pounds/Dollars to actually do it and even then there's no certainty of making a profit. Some cindicates have cleaned up on the Irish lottery when there's been a rollover, using the system.
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Date: Sat, Mar 06, 1999 at 21:40:03 (EST)
From: IB-J
Email: ironbear-jon@juno.com
To: Sir David
Subject: Letter of apology
Message:
Hi Sir David,
Not all people who win are undeserving. The first case that I was referring to was a woman who was over $100,000 in debt. She went to a Robbins seminar and he talked about how we can create whatever we want if we believe strongly enough that it can happen for us. She decided to give it a try.. and she did indeed win over $100 thousand and was able to pay off her bills a few weeks later. After doing that she decided that if she could do it once she could do it again.. so she set to work on it one more time.. and in a few weeks she won AGAIN.. this time over $200 thousand! She went back to a Robbins seminar after that to tell him what had happened.. and there was a couple (from New Jersey I think) who decided that if she did it they could too.. so they made it VERY real.. and went right home and told all of their friends that they had ALREADY won.. and even went out and bought a brand new Cadillac! And, in something like two months they won $1.2 million in the state lottery. I'm not making this up.. it really happened. You can write to the Robbins Institute and talk to them about it. Tony also tells the story in his Personal Power tapes.

There was also a young man who won the Powerball just last week.. and he was down to only three dollars in his checking account. I'm not saying that he consciously created it.. although I do not believe in random events in the physical universe.. so I think his higher self called it in, but he was defininely needing it non the less.

To answer your question of how do you do it.. prayer is part of it. But the real key is KNOWING beyond the shadow of a doubt that what you are asking for will come to you. Remember when Jesus said that if we had the faith of a mustard seed that we could do all the wonders and miracles that he was doing.. and even more? What he was trying to tell people two thousand years ago is that we are not helpless victims of a vengeful god.. that in fact we can ask for whatever we want.. and it will be provided.. but NOT UNLESS we have the BELIEF that it will come to us. Hope this helps. I'll probably get the hell beat out of me again by some folks.. but that's OK.
Jon :-)
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Date: Sat, Mar 06, 1999 at 21:57:13 (EST)
From: Sir David
Email: david.studio57@btinternet.com
To: IB-J
Subject: Letter of apology
Message:
I really must go to bed but there's a lot of truth in this belief thing. I think a lot of it has to do with the subconscious.

Actually I don't actually DO a lottery so there's zero chance of me winning. I'd rather get my money the hard way, or so I tell myself. But a little bit about belief; Back in 1984 I was penniless and living in squalor and suffering poor health with only social secirity money to support myself. But I set my mind to making money to get myself out of the hole I was in because I believe that money is a necessity to really perform on the stage of life etc. in this world.

I really believed I could get rich and I never gave up trying and lo and behold, within a few years I did make a whole lot of money. People couldn't believe how I'd done it. From a failure in abject poverty to wealth and with no help from any banks or anyone.

It's the vision we have that's important. We have to feel that we deserve success. We're worth it because we can do a lot of good with it. What are we? Gardeners, cultivating what's aready here for the benefit of all. Goodnight.
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Date: Sat, Mar 06, 1999 at 22:14:02 (EST)
From: Gerry
Email: None
To: Sir David
Subject: Letter of apology
Message:
I really believed I could get rich and I never gave up trying and lo and behold, within a few years I did make a whole lot of money. People couldn't believe how I'd done it. From a failure in abject poverty to wealth and with no help from any banks or anyone.

It's the vision we have that's important. We have to feel that we deserve success. We're worth it because we can do a lot of good with it. What are we? Gardeners, cultivating what's aready here for the benefit of all. Goodnight.


I agree with David here, whole-heartedly. And there is nothing mystical about the process. It is a matter of focus and purpose.

Dave, you are one great guy. But then, I think Jim is, also. ( I can say that 'cause I know he's gone...)
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Date: Sun, Mar 07, 1999 at 04:10:15 (EST)
From: cp
Email: None
To: IB-J
Subject: Post above 'word w/ you' is 4U
Message:
its a bit late here and the candle is out. Im pushing wrong buttons...
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Date: Sat, Mar 06, 1999 at 22:21:20 (EST)
From: Katie
Email: None
To: IronBear-Jon
Subject: Letter of apology
Message:
Dear IronBear -
Thanks for your response. I thought the dialogue was closed, and I appreciate that you came back and posted again. Although you and I obviously don't agree on a lot of things, I do believe that your intentions in posting here were good, and I think I can understand where you're coming from (and, I hope, vice versa!)

Take care,
Katie
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Date: Sun, Mar 07, 1999 at 00:33:40 (EST)
From: IB-J
Email: ironbear-jon@juno.com
To: Katie
Subject: Letter of apology
Message:
Hey Katie.. thanks! And to you Robyn, Red, and Sir David also! After reading the posts from a couple of other folks.. whose names I shant mention.. like Gerry or Jim, I can only say this:
After analyzing your posts I see a cheek, crack, cheek pattern emerging, and you, my friends, are the holes in the middle. (_!_)
Can I say that? At least it's better than 'I'm a f*ing wacko!'
Jon :-)
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Date: Sun, Mar 07, 1999 at 02:10:15 (EST)
From: Nimrod
Email: None
To: IB-J
Subject: Letter of apology-up YOUR ass
Message:
Can I say that? At least it's better than 'I'm a f*ing wacko!
Well actually, IB-J, it would have been far more honest on your part to come right out and admit it,and say
'I'm a f*ing wacko!'
But personally, I would never expect such honesty from a god-forsaken mini-con artist like yourself.
And now, having outlived your usefulness here, why don't you get the fuck out!
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Date: Sun, Mar 07, 1999 at 16:41:57 (EST)
From: cp
Email: None
To: IronBear-Jon
Subject: re Feb post
Message:
Anyway- about your letter of apology. I am one that found your post a few weeks ago not to my liking.

It wasnt anything that you said in particular, but it was your attitude that I didnt like.

The peanut gallery on this forum might slam you for the stuff you were saying as being wacky. I dont feel like that. but....

Assuming the stuff is feasible, the trouble I have with your basic attitude is that you seem to assume that the experinces of manifestation and/or visits from various dead persons is a good thing.

It seems like you want to get milage out of a quality of 'strange but true.'

Since you are a teacher of some kind, have you ever worked in a Mash Unit? In California, the Mash Unit operates as a unit of healers/physic surgeons that cater exclusively for the healers and teachers working with the public. The healers that work on the healers in the public arena mostly focus on INFLATED SPIRITUAL EGOS.

The whole trend towards Prosperity Work and the manifestation work is creating huge casualties. Know why? because there is a materialistic warp in these levels of so called spiritual work.

It involves questions of Physic Hygiene. Is it spiritually healthy to use ones powers of manifestation to satisfy ones appetite for accomplishment? Is it spiritually ethical to develope these powers and then offer to show/teach enabl others to do the same?
There is some interesting research done about Christ. It seems that it was the norm in his time to do healings and exorcisms. Many people in his time did such work. It was no big deal. What was a big deal was Christs intent.
What bothers me about how you sounded when you were posting earlier was that you seemed to get a rush out of announcing that such things were possible. This
made it that the focus was more on IF it was possible or not, rather than where your inner motives came from.
From what I know about Christ, he did not perform any miracles or manifestations unless the person or people were very ripe to take in not only what he had done, but the inner sactum from which he did the deeds.
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Date: Sun, Mar 07, 1999 at 22:26:20 (EST)
From: ib-j
Email: ironbear-jon@juno.com
To: cp
Subject: re Feb post
Message:
I hear what you're saying. I think if a person is only interested in using or teaching manifestation for personal gain and ignoring the spiritual quest as the primary goal.. it probably isn't spiritually ethical.. ie: in anyone's best interest to do so. I always operate on the premise that self realization is the primary goal and the goodies that come along as a result are just icing on the cake. The flip side to that however, is that when I finally changed my thinking.. I really began to see profound changes in my life.. both spiritually and in how things started manifesting in my life.

I guess I do kind of get a rush when I share that people can change their lives by changing their attitudes and thinking. Not a lot of people that I meet know that. I think it's pretty darned exciting really. Maybe it's nothing new, but to me it hasn't been that long since I've really started controlling my thinking and living in joy, and have seen things change profoundly as a result.

So that being said, I have decided not to post here any longer. There are far to many pseudo intellectuals who think they have all the answers to life's questions.. and don't know how to carry on a conversation without being vulgar and judgemental. You know who you are.. and all I can say is I hope someday you GROW UP! God Bless all..
Jon
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Date: Mon, Mar 08, 1999 at 00:30:04 (EST)
From: Miloochie
Email: None
To: ib-j
Subject: Just one minute...
Message:
So that being said, I have decided not to post here any longer. There are far to many pseudo intellectuals who think they have all the answers to life's questions.. and don't know how to carry on a conversation without being vulgar and judgemental. You know who you are.. and all I can say is I hope someday you GROW UP! God Bless all..
Jon


So you toss a verbal hand grenade in and then run out the door?

Who needs to grow up?

---------------

I was rough on what you had to say, but I didn't attack you personally. I can understand you taking it that way and no one likes to be critized, or their cherished beliefs. I've been there and so have many who contribute to this discussion.

But...(and all joking aside)...this is serious business here. You came busting in like a bull in a china shop.

You want to have a serious discussion, then let's see some seriousness. And I'll discuss it with you. Not, 'I'm taking my bat and ball and going home.'

You already know that I disagree with a lot of the content you present. Fine. So I disagree. If it's that solid for you, why is it criticism can shake it?

Jon...I love enthusiasm in people. I love seeing people who recognize what capabilities they have. I love seeing people succeed in all areas of their life. It's what price that someone might be paying for it down the road that concerns me here. Read Annie's hello to this place -- below.

Do you have any idea the guilt that someone like me feels for the enthusiasm that I expressed about what M could reveal? I was still covering up for him and protecting him and making excuses for him to myself and even to others (albeit with very little frequency) right up to the day I landed here (Feb. 18/99). Then millions of tiny brain cells jumped and down in absolute glee that they were finally recognized again and could join back into the neuron stream.

If you want to float stuff here it better hold water. It can be scary as hell, but, in the end, a real 'blessing.'

Hope I'm not saying all this to a dial tone.
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Date: Mon, Mar 08, 1999 at 13:57:44 (EST)
From: Helen
Email: None
To: Miloochie
Subject: In defense of the forum
Message:
I wouldn't worry about him too much, Miloochie. I'm going to rant here a bit, this is meant for IBJ as much as it's meant for you, although you probably agree with everything I'm saying so I don't mean to be ranting AT you. I have been hanging out here for over 4 months and what I love about this group of people is that they are not 'psuedo intellectuals' (ibj's words) but real intellectuals (if an intellectual means exercising the intellect). I love talking about philosophical stuff and this place has really stretched my mind. It's very hard in 'real life' to sort out these philosophical questions because a lot of people just don't want to talk about this stuff. Having people here who will discuss this stuff--stuff like 'the nature of consciousness', 'is there life after death', and 'are religions helpful, hurtful etc' has really helped me fine tune what it is I'm looking for in life, what my values are, and why I got detoured into M's trap in the first place. I've been introduced to some great books and music too, not to mention I've made some good friends.

I also DO NOT think most of us regulars here think 'we have all the answers to life's problems' (ibj's words again). That's why we're hanging out here discussing stuff. If anything, I've become MORE open-minded since hanging out here. I tend to be a little on the conservative side re: morality, religion, etc., being here has helped me to open up more to different perspectives and to remember that HUMANITY and COMPASSION are what it's all about. I think it's a pretty REAL bunch of people who have good bullshit detectors and demand evidence from people who profess new-agey stuff. I-BJ probably just is not interested in battting ideas back and forth--so be it. He's got his mind made up and doesn't want to stick around--that's a-okay with me. BTW, I posted something JUST FOR YOU down below.
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Date: Sat, Mar 06, 1999 at 17:01:22 (EST)
From: Popeye
Email: None
To: Everyone
Subject: On M's contradictions
Message:
Hi all,
Has anyone listed all of M's 'contradictions' that have been documented by ex-premies at one site? Maybe it's here at a specific URL at this site and I have not found it.
Again, I'm new to site, and merely an interested party of one and not(or ever have been) a follower of M.
Sincerely,
Popeye
Visit me at Libmansworld
http://www.libmansworld.com
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Date: Sat, Mar 06, 1999 at 17:07:57 (EST)
From: Popeye
Email: None
To: Popeye
Subject: Followup..Is it too obvious?
Message:
I failed to add:
How many contractions and the character of those contradictions are needed to finally make one reconsider M's role as a divine being or a leader that one wants to follow?
Is 'divine being' too strong of a phrase to desribe a premies perception of M?
Popeye
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Date: Sun, Mar 07, 1999 at 03:46:51 (EST)
From: Olive Oil/Helen
Email: None
To: Popeye
Subject: Followup..Is it too obvious?
Message:
Maharaji makes it his business to provide you with so many contradictions about himself so that you stop relying on your mind to judge him, and surrender instead. He does all this selflessly to enhance your spiritual development. This is his right as he is a divine Master, above the contradictions of this world! You are not supposed to question him, that's your Mind getting in the way of your 'experience'. Oh great Guru, your ways are mysterious to me!!

Yes I would say Maharaji is supposed to be a divine being--why else would one surrender their mind to him?
One big contradiction--we used to sing a devotional song--'Arti' to him. One of the verses went 'Mine, thine, wealth, health, give them to the lotus feet of love' We were not supposed to be attached to money or wealth , but he sure is!! Hmmm, and giving my health to the lotus feet of love, not such a good idea. A good diagnosis from a doctor when you have a serious degenerative disease--good idea. Not good idea to wait many years before diagnosis because too fooled by Guru!!
If you don't know I'm being sarcastic--now you know,
Yes it's 3:30 in the morning, back to bed I go, Helen
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Date: Sat, Mar 06, 1999 at 14:13:25 (EST)
From: Jim
Email: None
To: Everyone
Subject: Holiday Magic
Message:
I just wanted to share a few 'feelings' before I take off for a few weeks:

1) Sometimes talking with premies feels like a card game. Not poker so much as fish. There are times when I ask the premie if they've got any clubs and they say no. Sometimes, though, I think they're lying. They know their hand, it's right in front of them. They just don't want to admit that those are the cards they've got.

Now the big question is 'are the premies so brainwashed that they can't see their own cards?' I mean, if that were the case it would be brutally unfair to ridicule them. They've been virtually blinded, one might say. You don't fault a blind man for not knowing his hand, do you? No, of course not.

The thing is, though, I don't think the premies are so blind.

Someone here recently reminded us of that satsang Marolyn gve bakc in the late seventies where she decribed a situation where Maharaji was calling a black carpet blue or something. It was so obviously black it ended up being a very puzzling moment for ol' Durga Ji, Goddess of Love. Should she argue the point, simply shut up or, better still, try to 'accept' the 'fact' that the carpet was blue after all? I think Marolyn came down on the last option, the bizarre one.

The problem, however, was that, as much as one might like to be a good devotee and all that, Maharaji hasn't done enough to disconnect or 'mastermind' our cerebral cortex. We still have that pesky brain, interpreting those pesky neural stimulations and coming up 'black', not 'blue'. This isn't full voodoo, the premies aren't the walking dead. In the seventies we actually tried, at times, to get there but neve could. And now? Forget it. There's LOTS of room to have a perfectly functioning brain so long as you don't vomit the cookies Maharaji's given you.

So, when premies come here and defy the plain, common-sense interpretation of words or situations, I say they're lying. They're not confused, they're lying. It's like they're looking at their cards, they can see what they've got. They knwo damn well they're looking at a club or so when you ask but, such is their loyalty to the trip, they'll readily lie and say 'fish' instead of giving up the cards.

For example, Denise. Yes, I like Deinse too (and I'm glad she's alright after her accident and hope she gets some good coin out of the situation. Honestly.). But I say that when she said she doesn't think Maharaji discourages intellectual study of knowledge(including historical, sociological, scientific or whatever), that was one instance where Denise said 'fish' knowing full well she had at least one club in her hand. Hence the question: will she walk the path of SHP?

Denise's future, like that of any other premie who comes here is easy to make out. It's all up to her. If she plays cards honestly, she's out. If she cheats, she can stay in the game forever.

2) Have fun.
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Date: Sat, Mar 06, 1999 at 14:59:11 (EST)
From: Happy
Email: None
To: Jim
Subject: Just want to say
Message:
That I enjoyed your posts. Intelligent and right-forward. They helped me forward, and reassured my sense of reality. I guess we are all different. Stay put.
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Date: Sat, Mar 06, 1999 at 17:06:38 (EST)
From: Katie
Email: None
To: Happy & Jim
Subject: To Jim and Happy
Message:
Jim, have a good time on vacation, and I hope you avoid the hordes of drunken 18 to 22-year-olds that are on spring break right now. (If you want to, that is. Laurie IS going with you, right? :)

Happy, you wrote, regarding Jim:
That I enjoyed your posts. Intelligent and right-forward. They helped me forward, and reassured my sense of reality. I guess we are all different. Stay put.

A lot of people have told me Jim's posts have helped them, and I have tried to make this clear even when I don't personally agree with him. And, I agree that we are all different - it's such a relief, isn't it? I really appreciate the fact that all the ex-premies don't always have to agree with each other on everything.

Take care,
Katie
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Date: Sat, Mar 06, 1999 at 15:08:26 (EST)
From: SHP
Email: None
To: Jim
Subject: Holiday Flagellate
Message:
JH:

In repsonse to your post:

JH: I just wanted to share a few 'feelings' before I take off for a few weeks.

SHP:
Feelings from Jim. That's a step in the right direction.

JH: Sometimes talking with premies feels like a card game. Not poker so much as fish. There are times when I ask the premie if they've got any clubs and they say no. Sometimes, though, I think they're lying. They know their hand, it's right in front of them. They just don't want to admit that those are the cards they've got.

SHP: Why would anybody lie to you? And specifics would help.

JH: Now the big question is 'are the premies so brainwashed that they can't see their own cards?'

SHP: Do you have x-ray vision and can you see all the cards?

JH: I mean, if that were the case it would be brutally unfair to ridicule them. They've been virtually blinded, one might say. You don't fault a blind man for not knowing his hand, do you? No, of course not.

SHP: You don't play cards with a blind person, do you? Not for money, I trust.

JH: The thing is, though, I don't think the premies are so blind.

SHP: The operative words are 'I don't think'.

JH: Someone here recently reminded us of that satsang Marolyn gve bakc in the late seventies where she decribed a situation where Maharaji was calling a black carpet blue or something. It was so
obviously black it ended up being a very puzzling moment for ol' Durga Ji, Goddess of Love. Should she argue the point, simply shut up or, better still, try to 'accept' the 'fact' that the carpet was blue after all? I think Marolyn came down on the last option, the bizarre one.

SHP: Being an artist, I am aware of subtle shades of color and shadow. If we were looking at a white wall, you could be seeing light green, mauve, gray, and an assortment of other very soft colors that are not immediately obvious to the human eye. That could have been the issue, but I don't know, wasn't there. In the cardgame context, this issue is a deuce.

JH: The problem, however, was that, as much as one might like to be a good devotee and all that, Maharaji hasn't done enough to disconnect or 'mastermind' our cerebral cortex.

SHP: Dammit Jim, he's only a master. (I finally got to use that old Star Trek line!)

JH: We still have that pesky brain, interpreting those pesky neural stimulations and coming up 'black', not 'blue'. This isn't full voodoo, the premies aren't the walking dead. In the seventies we actually tried, at times, to get there but neve could. And now? Forget it. There's LOTS of room to have a perfectly functioning
brain so long as you don't vomit the cookies Maharaji's given you.

SHP: Something or somebody hurt you pretty deep a long time ago, not Maharaji.

JH: So, when premies come here and defy the plain, common-sense interpretation of words or situations, I say they're lying. They're not confused, they're lying. It's like they're looking at their cards, they can see what they've got. They knwo damn well they're looking at a club or so when you ask but, such is
their loyalty to the trip, they'll readily lie and say 'fish' instead of giving up the cards.

SHP: 100 years ago in the old west yer words would provoke gunplay ya varmint. Again, no specifics, no cigar.

JH: For example, Denise. Yes, I like Deinse too (and I'm glad she's alright after her accident and hope she gets some good coin out of the situation. Honestly.). But I say that when she said she doesn't think Maharaji discourages intellectual study of knowledge(including historical, sociological, scientific
or whatever), that was one instance where Denise said 'fish' knowing full well she had at least one club in her hand. Hence the question: will she walk the path of SHP?

SHP: My perception is that Maharaji emphasizes the practice of Knowledge, and everything else is secondary, but does not discount other pursuits. He merely expresses what he thinks are life's priorities.

There ya go again with the 'path of SHP'. What's that mean?
Standing up to your shit? Being true to herself, even if it disagrees with you? More power to her.

JH: Denise's future, like that of any other premie who comes here is easy to make out. It's all up to her.

SHP: We agree! And that is true for all of us.

JH: If she plays cards honestly, she's out. If she cheats, she can stay in the game forever.

SHP: Actually, you have it backwards.

JH: Have fun.

SHP: Fer sure, dude.
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Date: Sat, Mar 06, 1999 at 15:35:16 (EST)
From: barney
Email: None
To: Jim
Subject: Viral Worm - Warning Gross!
Message:
I agree with Jim that premies can be liars. They are not only lying to us, but, of course, to themselves.

However, we must understand, and it shouldn't be too difficult because we've been there, that they are under the spell of a very powerful long term brainwashing program. And we should never under estimate the effects of brainwashing. Nor should be expect rational and logical responses from them, which might be why there is a frustration in dealing with them.

Remember that the Master plan was and still is to circulate amongst the general population and infect them with the disease via the brainwashing technique. Do you remember the total crap that we used to lay on people? Sure, I'll agree that the message is a bit more slick and subtle today, but the bottomline in the heart of almost every premie is that Maharaji is the Lord of the Universe, God incarnate, etc. and he has told them to go out and spread the word, spread the virus. Didn't Burrough's say Language is a virus?

Of course, we should be considerate to the fact that they are real human beings beneath their hardended brainwashed facade, but it is quite possible that they might be beyond immediate hope in terms of winning them over, which may or may not be the goal of the Forum. As uncaring as this might sound, I don't really care.

I think that the one of more important roles of the Forum is to present the public discussion that directly challenges the brainwashing. Converting the hardened premies who come here to do battle might very well be Quixotic quest. However, there may be a huge number of fence-sitting premies, aspirants or curious public who read and never post that may get the message that Maharaji is a scam artist and his teachings lead to mental illness.

For me, I came to the Forum to look for little stories about Maharaji. I was a fence sitting, on the fringe premie and the Forum got me the hell out of there. I didn't post. I read. Sure, I thought that some of the posts were close to vicious upon my arrival, but I don't think so anymore.

No, it's not a disease. It's a goddman parasitic tapeworm that's been sucking the life out of you for years. And it just might take a bitter tasting medicine to rid yourself of this sucker!

Apologies to any fence sitting premies if this sounded condescending.
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Date: Sat, Mar 06, 1999 at 15:53:01 (EST)
From: Rick
Email: None
To: Jim
Subject: Holiday Magic
Message:
Congrats on the new more sensitive Jim. Same ideas without the ten year old. I have to agree with all you said in your post. Brilliant. And naturally, SHP struts right up to the plate to prove you right. Amen.
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Date: Sat, Mar 06, 1999 at 17:38:54 (EST)
From: SHP
Email: None
To: Rick
Subject: right up to the plate
Message:
Dear Rick:

I don't want to interrupt your backslapping party with Jim, but I don't see that much of a difference.....so instead of going completely off, he now kindly and gently accuses 'premies' of being liars, blind, etc. A wolf in sheep's clothing or the beginning of a metamorphisis...time will tell.

Your mutual admiration society looks kinda of shallow from outside your little loop. But I still have hope for a better connection.
As for my 'strut to the plate', it's an empty phrase to be enjoyed by your inner circle, junk food for your heads. HIgh school level name calling and hassling at best. No meaning.

Wishing you the best.
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Date: Sat, Mar 06, 1999 at 18:08:44 (EST)
From: Rick
Email: None
To: SHP
Subject: right up to the plate
Message:
Sorry, SHP, I've made it clear for two years now that I think Jim is obnoxious. But he has a brilliant talent for sniffing out cult thinking, revisionists and liars. So it isn't a slap on the back to Jim, but acknowledgement of the truth. I think he makes a strong case that premies are lying when they don't admit maharaji's history and backpeddling, and when they deny obvious patterns like maharaji's depreciation of mental pursuits.

And you do strut up to the plate every time and prove that no matter how obnoxious Jim is, he's right about you. Sometimes the truth hurts.
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Date: Sat, Mar 06, 1999 at 20:00:59 (EST)
From: SHP
Email: None
To: Rick
Subject: right up to the plate
Message:
None of this hurts.
It's just a pain in the ass to deal with.
You guys are amateurs when it comes to counseling.
You are hacks and lack the humility to be consistent.
Everybody gets lucky once in a while, but you flatter yourselves.
I am not ducking or sucking up, so I receive your scorn.
No surprises here.
And yet I wish you the best.
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Date: Sat, Mar 06, 1999 at 20:05:00 (EST)
From: Jim
Email: None
To: SHP
Subject: please forgive Rick, shp
Message:
SHP,

Did Rick treat you a little harshly? My, my! That's not the Rick I know. He must have been trying to demonstrate how ineffective my own approach to stripped screws like you can be. How insensitive for him to do that!

Don't worry, shp, Robyn and I'll talk to him.
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Date: Sat, Mar 06, 1999 at 20:09:59 (EST)
From: SHP
Email: None
To: Jim
Subject: If you take the words away,Jim
Message:
all that's left of your above post is a twisted dysfunctional vibe. That's what you do when you have nothing to say but you just want to spread a little shit. Your M.O.

All everybody wants is love. You have a weird way of seeking it out.
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Date: Sat, Mar 06, 1999 at 20:14:47 (EST)
From: Jim
Email: None
To: SHP
Subject: Okay, let me ask YOU, shp
Message:
SHP,

Zac and Miloochie are two premies who recently found this page, learned a lot about Maharaji they didn't know before and are in the process of disentangling from the scam. What do you think is different about them and you?
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Date: Sun, Mar 07, 1999 at 22:00:26 (EST)
From: SHP
Email: None
To: Jim
Subject: individuality is amazing
Message:
I cannot speak for anyone else, their perceptions or experience.
All I can speak about with any authority is my own experience.
My own experience with Maharaji and Knowledge is:

1) beyond words, concepts or logic
2) beyond being shaken loose by others to date

Sorry, I am not going to play 'compare and contrast' with my life and the lives of Zac and Mili at your request, or succumb to any sort of other pressure. To each their own, peace to all.
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Date: Mon, Mar 08, 1999 at 11:26:09 (EST)
From: Mike
Email: None
To: SHP
Subject: ok shp, what IS your experince
Message:
shp: Have you seen the 'rays of light' coming FROM M, or do you just assume that the experience comes from him because he said so?
You 'talk' about experience, but I haven't heard any specifics concerning your experience of M, in particular. K aside, I would like to know why you think M is anything special at all, specifically.

BTW, I have, in the past, described some of my so-called experiences with alot of detail; I think you can, too.
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Date: Mon, Mar 08, 1999 at 22:42:15 (EST)
From: SHP
Email: None
To: Mike
Subject: I don't show my treasure to
Message:
those who would even try to rob me. That would be foolish now wouldn't it?
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Date: Tues, Mar 09, 1999 at 17:20:46 (EST)
From: Mike
Email: None
To: SHP
Subject: typical
Message:
shp: THAT is a typical cop-out when you CAN'T deliver that which is requested. The request was simple, the answer would have been also. :-(
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Date: Wed, Mar 10, 1999 at 02:40:48 (EST)
From: SHP
Email: None
To: Mike
Subject: typically sensible
Message:
If there was this street where people of a certain persuasion got mugged and robbed whenever they went down it, who in their right mind, once aware of that street, would strip naked, lay their wallet and keys on the pavement, and skip down it?
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Date: Sat, Mar 06, 1999 at 20:00:50 (EST)
From: Rick
Email: None
To: Rick
Subject: Sorry
Message:
Sorry Rick,

Same ol' Jim. Obnoxious, ten-year old perhaps. Perhaps not. Rick, I think our only problem is that we went to different rehab centres.
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Date: Sat, Mar 06, 1999 at 20:01:50 (EST)
From: Jim
Email: None
To: Rick
Subject: Sorry, I'm 'sorry', not Rick
Message:
oops
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Date: Sat, Mar 06, 1999 at 16:19:51 (EST)
From: Helen
Email: None
To: Jim
Subject: Holiday Magic
Message:
There's a post for you below in response to a ? you asked me. I hope you read it before you go, otherwise I just wasted a bunch of time
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Date: Sat, Mar 06, 1999 at 18:48:55 (EST)
From: Denise
Email: None
To: Jim
Subject: Holiday Magic
Message:
Have a good holiday Jim!

You know what I think the problem may be ? Your head (not only yours, others also) is stuck in the 1970's perception and my head is in the 1990's perception and they are two different animals. Why? Depending on which side you're on, one could conclude it's either natural evolution to the better or a sneaky cover-up. My experience of the whole organization is completely different than y'all's, that's very clear to me. We're coming from two very different places. I never surrendered because I was never asked to, etc.

A tip for all of you who see me as a project: the posts that have the most effect on me are those that come from the heart, not bitterness or anger. The two posts that have affected me most are g's mom's about the abuse and the post (can't remember who) about losing everything, being sad and broke monetarily and broken in spirit and being blown off by instructors and M.
The feeling behind those posts really came through, they were genuine and sincere. Those are qualities that affect me.

A quick story about the moment I decided to receive Knowledge.
Had been told about K from a close friend the same age whose family were all premies. I was searching and didn't want a master, just the meditation techniques, so I avoided K for a year until I gave meditation out of books one last shot. Anyway, at the time, all there was for propagation was premie satsang-one on one or the group living room situation. The night I decided to recieve K was the second group satsang I had attended. I watched the faces and listened to the people (most were genuine, not all) and saw the sincerity and the love from which they spoke. It was the sincerity of their whole selves, words & body language, that got to me. I decided I wanted what they had. M was never a part of it for me until later. It was always just this Knowledge for the first year or so. I never wanted a Master, I just wanted to feel what they were feeling. And ever since then, I've gotten the chance to, with or without M.
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Date: Sat, Mar 06, 1999 at 19:23:04 (EST)
From: Jim
Email: None
To: Denise
Subject: My first reply
Message:
Denise,

I'm almost gone -- another few hours. Thanks for the bon voyage.

Yeah, it's a bit of a lark getting involved in 'Project Denise'. The 'Chris Dickey Communication Project' ran out of money and no one wants to even submit a proposal on SHP. That leaves you.

So you're gonna tell us how to get through to you, are you? Is that how it works? Denise, I don't give a flying fuck about how sweet a vibe the premies can work up. I've been to a couple of Hare Krishna parties in my time and they were kind of fun too. (We're talking the wilder Maui ones, off the mainstream and all).

What about the truth, Denise? If Maharaji's the snake we say he is and you're playing along what, pray tell, does that make you?

Look, Maharaji claimed he was God. Do you understand that or not? He was a little kid pretending to be the saviour of humanity and he caused a lot of pain and confusion doing so. He never apologized one bit for any of that. Instead, while he sucked his premies dry for years he set himself up to be, in his own words, a 'successful investor'. That's MY money, Denise! Mine, and yours, and JW's and everyone's. Get it?

If you came upon an ugly, worm-infested carcass on the side of the road, would you look for a few pieces of good meat on it? If someone brought you a piece of meat they said they got from such a carcass would you say 'that's okay, this piece is fine'?

Maharaji's a fraud, you already know too much to deny as much and now are feeling understandable inertia. You know, it's one thnig to be hoodwinked by a fraud like Maharaji. It's another to learn the facts but to still stay involved. I think there's a moral obligation on every premie who realizes that Maharaji's not playing straight to, at the very minimum, call him on it. If you accept as true half of what you've read here, I'd say you're in an ethical quandry. Doing nothing is tantamount to acquiescance. That's bad, I'd say.

And even if you think you can eat around the rot, what about your ethical obligation to your friends in the cult who don't know as much as you? Have you thought about that? Say you think you've got the mental agility to dip in Maharaji's murky waters but not drown. What about those who aren't so clever? Who don't know what you know and can't be so selective in their 'gratitude'? Can you just sit beside them mum, never helping them see what you do?
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Date: Sat, Mar 06, 1999 at 19:37:03 (EST)
From: Jim
Email: None
To: Denise
Subject: My second reply
Message:
Denise,

Thanks for the bon voyage.

You write:

You know what I think the problem may be ? Your head (not only yours, others also) is stuck in the 1970's perception and my head is in the 1990's perception and they are two different animals. Why? Depending on which side you're on, one could conclude it's either natural evolution to the better or a sneaky cover-up. My experience of the whole organization is completely different than y'all's, that's very clear to me. We're coming from two very different places. I never surrendered because I was never asked to, etc.

I think you're wrong. My head isn't 'stuck' anywhere. I know the cult's changed. Hell, don't you think I haven't seen the new videos, talked to current premies, read ELK and Maharaji's own site? Without actually getting involved agian myself, I think I know exactly what it's like now. Exactly.

I'm going to go out on a limb myself and speculate a bit about your psychology. You're obviously intelligent. In this situation, though, I think you're 'dummying down'. I think you're pretending that Maharaji's past can possibly be irrelevant somehow. You're experimenting with a certain popular version of Maharaji cult superficiality, seeing if you can wear it 24/7. Like contact lenses, I guess.

Well? How does it feel to try on an attitude that says, bottom-line, 'I don't care about nothing. I got no questions AND if there's some deception going on here, I don't give a shit so long as I don't know about it'? How's it feel? Does it fit right?

See, even Op can commiserate with the best of them. 'Aw, G's mom, did you get molested a bit by the bad mahatma? Why that's terrible!' Or 'Oh, yes, you poor soul who lost your family and business because of all that confusion back then. I really feel your pain, let me tell you!'

The point is .... what's the point, Denise? You tell me. What's the point, eh? Those stories were told by those peopel to make a larger point. Don't pretend you don't recognize it. Deal with it.
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Date: Mon, Mar 08, 1999 at 21:10:01 (EST)
From: Sandra
Email: None
To: Jim
Subject: My second reply
Message:
'I think you're wrong. My head isn't 'stuck' anywhere.'

I beg to differ. I've read some of your posts and you're bullying, manipulative, insensitive and clearly on a nasty little power trip of your own. I'd say your head is clearly stuck up your own ass and the aroma is overwhelming.

Sandra
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Date: Sat, Mar 06, 1999 at 19:57:50 (EST)
From: Jim
Email: None
To: Denise
Subject: My third reply
Message:
Thanks for the nice send-off, Denise.

Denise, have you noticed some of the posts by Miloochie or Zac? Like Miloochie's post below under 'Important point, this raises'?
These guys are processing the same information you are and, in Miloochie's case anyway, still enjoying the meditation.

Here's a question for you: how would you describe the difference between shp's reaction to the info here and those two guys?
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Date: Sat, Mar 06, 1999 at 23:03:53 (EST)
From: bill-denise doesn't see
Email: None
To: Jim
Subject: her insult I bet.
Message:
As someone who left in about 98, I hardly think this
forum is stuck in some 70's past,there are issues
that are valid here.

I think at least half the reason this forum runs hot is
that premies or half-aspirants say things that are
imflammatory or incindiary.
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Date: Sun, Mar 07, 1999 at 04:44:25 (EST)
From: cp
Email: None
To: Jim
Subject: Why Jim....
Message:
I like you like this.
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Date: Sat, Mar 06, 1999 at 21:40:09 (EST)
From: Sir David
Email: david.studio57@btinternet.com
To: Denise
Subject: Holiday Magic
Message:
I'm off to bed now but here's my view, Denise. Do what you want to do. If you want to follow Maharaji then do so and if you don't then don't. Do whatever you like and if that means going to video events and listening to Maharaji or whatever it is that people do these days then feel free! Nobody here has the right to preach to you what you should or should not do.

Jim's just doing what he wants to do and so are we all. In many cases, life is more about doing what you HAVE to do to keep the ball rolling, anyway. I've no argument against premies so long as they have no argument with me. Whatever turns you on and helps you through the night. Not that anyone's going to take too much notice what I say anyway. Everybody will keep on doing and saying what they damn well like and that's how it should be.

But why I'm here is to also say that if you DON'T want to follow Maharaji's golden way - you don't have to. There's no need to if you don't want to and that's where Maharaji and I part company, very swiftly.
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Date: Sun, Mar 07, 1999 at 13:45:23 (EST)
From: g's mom
Email: None
To: Denise
Subject: read all Jim's replies
Message:
Every post Jim has made today really says more about what the problem with Rawat and his organization is than either my posts or the other ex you mention. Why...because as I have said before...Rawat could been a boy scout, a great manager, a family man, and as long as he claimed he was God, and allowed all these people to sacrifice so much to him and operate under that assumption for many years, and never apologize, explain, or even neccessarily make it clear he is no longer God....that is just all there is one needs to know to see that he is a bad person and it is a cult still . Also Denise, I'll bet you that there are a lot of premies out there who still think he is god, but it ain't PC to talk about it, so they lay low but they know the TRUTH. And you bet that is what he wants them to think.

I think knowing about some of the unpleasant realities about Rawat and his organization does help. First of all, he is responsible for much the destructive things that have gone on in his name, either because he led people to behave this way or he looked the opther way when they did. But what Jim is saying is WAY more to the point. I cannot stress that enough.

I cannot lie and say I do not care if you stay in the cult or not. I care. I do not know you, I lose little if you stay in, but I care that anyone is being tricked by this fraud. I care. But I fully realize you may well stay. And if you do I do admire that you at least questioned as much as you have. But I have to say, over the net, not face to face, my feeling is that you are still lying to yourself, trying to find any way to cling to something you really want to believe in.

My experience was it was really hard to face the truth about Rawat. It was hard to face the truth about myself that I was the sort of person who was a genuine full fledged cult member. And it was hardest when I first started questioning and the walls came tumbling down. But Jim is really right, he is stating the process perfectly, you have to, I had to, face the ugly facts squarely. No excuses, no rationalizations, no twisted logic, I had to face every fact and say...what does this tell me? And they all tell me this is a cult, he is not God or Divine in any way, and the whole thing is a very simple and effective trap, who benefits from the trap? Rawat does.
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Date: Sat, Mar 06, 1999 at 09:40:19 (EST)
From: Brian
Email: brian@ex-premie.org
To: Everyone
Subject: Fixed Lane link - JM note
Message:
The broken link on the Links page to Dr. Lane's Neural Surfer website has finally been fixed, thanks to Anon's detective work. I had given up trying to track down the moved site after the broken link was pointed out over a month ago. (Don't remember who brought it to my attention, since I've since deleted the email. But THANKS to whoever it was!)

[JM - the only local French page involved is the Links page.]
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Date: Sat, Mar 06, 1999 at 21:04:53 (EST)
From: Jim
Email: None
To: Brian
Subject: A Radhasoami forum's there
Message:
Brian,

Did you notice there's a Radhasoami forum there? Here's a sample post:

'Neil says something very telling in his latest
post about the doctrine of Perfect Masters being
central to the teachings of Sant Mat.
He says we can believe it or disbelieve it, but
it remains the core of the tradition.
Well, that's precisely the problem.

We have no evidence to suggest that these Masters
are indeed perfect. We have tremendous evidence
to suggest that they are 'perfectly imperfect'
to coin a phrase.

The problem is that we simply won't admit the obvious.

We are literally doing a Wizard of Oz in this field. 'Don't look behind the curtain,' as the
voice says.

Why?

Because behind all the bombast (and it is bombastic), there really is a small man pretending to be more than what he is.

The Wizard as HUMAN gets revealed not by 'believing' him as God, but rather by letting
an animal (in this case a dog, oh yea Toto too)
use his teeth (critical mind?) bite the curtain
(the infrastructure/the rhetoric) and pull away
to reveal the underlying truth:

Puffery and more puffery.

The guru has no turban and the sooner we realize
that then Sant Mat can progress from being mythic
in its theology and start acting like the science
it so arrogantly claims to be.

Don't get me wrong, I think gurus are helpful.

I just don't think we have to buy into the pre-modern bsing to keep the guru fed or the Wizard
behind the curtain.

Toto reveals the truth in a much deeper way than
the Wizard.

Or, as Faqir Chand once said, 'My disciples
revealed to me the True Form of the Guru.'

The true form doesn't have to hide behind honorifics or titles.

The true form doesn't make claims but then offer
no proof.

The true form INVITES Toto's teeth.

It doesn't ask for us to believe or not to believe.

The true form says engage the practice.

And then DEBATE the interpretations AFTER.

What we have now is gurus wanting us to believe
something BEFORE and then NOT debate it AFTER.

That's not science; that's dogmatism.

So, if these gurus are indeed Perfect then let us
see some 'manifested' transcendence.

In other words, what can this or that guru do
as a calling card that is RADICALLY unique?

Remember we are taught to call these guys (and
Kirpal in print says it is ALWAYS males) GOD.

Is our cross bar so low?

Does God become less by our higher standards?

Some of these Masters are indeed kind, beautiful,
and generous.

But all-knowing?

NOPE.

Perfect?

NOPE.

Now I would love to be wrong, but all one has to
do is hang out with one of them long enough to see
that we are inflating these beings because of our
own insecurities.

And I say all this not because I disbelieve, but
because I realize that being Toto-like is more
illuminating than being Lion-like (if you saw the]
movie you will get my drift).

Signed:

Toto's friend'
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Date: Sat, Mar 06, 1999 at 23:39:55 (EST)
From: bill
Email: None
To: Jim
Subject: A Radhasoami forum's there
Message:
Great find Jimbo.
In another section there is a story of paul twitchell of
eckancar telling his suckers that there is a 500 year old
spiritual guy around and surprise surprise his followers
started having visions and experiences 'inside' with the
500 yr old monk that twitchell later admitted he had made up.
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Date: Sun, Mar 07, 1999 at 13:04:56 (EST)
From: gerry
Email: None
To: bill
Subject: This relates to Iron Bear and
Message:
his seeing Jesus and talking to his dead wife:

In another section there is a story of paul twitchell of
eckancar telling his suckers that there is a 500 year old
spiritual guy around and surprise surprise his followers
started having visions and experiences 'inside' with the
500 yr old monk that twitchell later admitted he had made up.


The same psycho-or-neuro logical mechanism is at work here.
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Date: Sat, Mar 06, 1999 at 08:00:19 (EST)
From: Helen
Email: None
To: Everyone
Subject: Path of total surrender
Message:
I've said this before but the path of total surrender seems unnecessarily cruel. I remembering envying my friends who had gurus that actually had some sort of medium ground in their message. With GM there was no medium ground, no room to manuever, you were either surrendered or you were in a state of abject misery. No Mr. In-between.
I suppose that if you truly were surrendered there was some kind a happiness in the whole thing, sort of like being a puppy living for the Master's pat on the head. But I just could never get to that place...there was always some kind of interruption from the real world to deal with, some reminder of the 'duality' we all must live with.

The path of total surrender--premies used to warn me that this was what I was in for if I received knowledge. They made it sound like some kind of death sentence!
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Date: Sat, Mar 06, 1999 at 12:46:33 (EST)
From: JW
Email: None
To: Helen
Subject: Path of total surrender
Message:
I suppose that if you truly were surrendered there was some kind a happiness in the whole thing, sort of like being a puppy living for the Master's pat on the head.

Yes, there was some kind of pleasing experience there, especially at first, but it certainly wasn't happiness, and it only continued with a lot of effort to repress that part of yourself that wanted to be a self-directed individual person. It takes a lot of effort, rationalization, repression and that leads to some misery that balances out the pleasant, somewhat freeing, experience of 'surrender.' And then there was the constant guilt and frustration of not being surrendered enough. It was a vicious circle, kind of like the hamster running on the wheel.

Also, the fact that a devotee of Maharaji has virtually no contact with the object of the devotion, except at programs and through videos, means there isn't much fulfillment of the surrender/devotion. But then, at least, you could keep your positive fantasy of Maharaji as some kind of powerful master intact, because you never tested it in reality. On the other hand, if you spent much time around Maharaji, you saw how uncarring and out of touch he was, as well as incompetent as a 'master,' making it harder to rationalize why you would be devoted to, and trust him enought to surrender to, such an arrogant loser.
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Date: Sat, Mar 06, 1999 at 14:10:48 (EST)
From: Miloochie
Email: None
To: Helen
Subject: Path of total surrender
Message:
I've said this before but the path of total surrender seems unnecessarily cruel.

It is cruel. Plain and simple. And part surrender is just as destructive, maybe even more so, because it's not obvious...it's subtle, insidious. 'Well hidden by the best intentions for an individual and his/her world.

The path of total surrender--premies used to warn me that this was what I was in for if I received knowledge. They made it sound like some kind of death sentence!

Interesting that you used the phrase 'warn me' It is a death sentence. I died...inside. Slowly...slowly.

'Still breathing. 'Still here. Perhaps 'Born again.' Ironic, yes? 'But finally real, hopeful, possible...

Thanks, Helen. Even though I had only gone to one video event (mostly for curiousity of the 'new' deal) in fifteen-plus years, I was unconciously, unknowingly, and blindly still trying to 'surrender.' Sick.

To possibly, someday, somehow, never again find myself attempting to squeeze my being, my thoughts, my actions, into that pathetic 'duality' ...is my greatest hope. If I could get myself into it, then I must be able to get myself out. I must.

Cheers,
Miloochie
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Date: Sat, Mar 06, 1999 at 15:17:43 (EST)
From: Helen
Email: None
To: Miloochie/JW
Subject: A sad and telling memory
Message:
I never felt truly happy either, while I was a premie, JW. I know this sounds really sick, but one day (at the height of my premie days) I fell off my bicycle and had a few minor scrapes, and it actually felt good to feel something, anything. To feel that I was a flesh and blood human being. That's how dead I was, Miloochie.

Now I experience much more happiness than I ever imagined during the premie days, not on an hourly basis or anything, but just the pleasure and happiness of being alive and feeling my flesh and bones humanness most days.

Take care, guys

Helen
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Date: Sun, Mar 07, 1999 at 03:45:47 (EST)
From: Gail
Email: None
To: Miloochie
Subject: Path of total surrender
Message:
'If I could get myself into it, then I must be able to get myself out. I must.'

This reminds me of the ditty, I MUST, I MUST, I MUST INCREASE MY BUST. However, your statement is more plausible and doesn't require surgery.
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Date: Fri, Mar 05, 1999 at 23:57:52 (EST)
From: AE
Email: None
To: Everyone
Subject: He's hardly Mr Popular
Message:
Just read, What some people think about Maharajito see what I mean.
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Date: Sat, Mar 06, 1999 at 01:02:14 (EST)
From: bill
Email: None
To: AE
Subject: really good AE (nt)
Message:
wekgje
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Date: Sat, Mar 06, 1999 at 09:38:12 (EST)
From: AE
Email: None
To: bill
Subject: Thanks Mr Maharaji
Message:
Maharaji - The man of Miracles and enlightened Master, has knocked the other Maharaji - the man of no miracles and unenlightened master, off the top of the Altavista search index (on maharaji) and relegated him to 28th place. Have a look at the Altavista search index because it makes interesting reading. There's new Maharajis popping up by the minute.
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Date: Sat, Mar 06, 1999 at 14:55:53 (EST)
From: Happy
Email: None
To: AE
Subject: Your site
Message:
is just getting better and better.
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Date: Sun, Mar 07, 1999 at 09:25:34 (EST)
From: Katie
Email: None
To: AE
Subject: You're linked
Message:
You may already know this, but 'M's Homepage' is on this site's links page now, along with the House of Drek.
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Date: Fri, Mar 05, 1999 at 14:51:00 (EST)
From: Denise
Email: None
To: SHP
Subject: To SHP
Message:
Can I have your E Mail address?
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Date: Fri, Mar 05, 1999 at 18:17:32 (EST)
From: SHP
Email: None
To: Denise
Subject: e-mail address
Message:
mcpass1@earthlink.net
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Date: Sat, Mar 06, 1999 at 01:04:51 (EST)
From: bill
Email: None
To: SHP
Subject: shp
Message:
I would like to remind you that you are someone that
thinks that there is an origional conciousness and that
it is self concious.
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Date: Fri, Mar 05, 1999 at 21:44:21 (EST)
From: Zac
Email: None
To: Denise
Subject: To Denise
Message:
Denise, First off you do not have to make any decisions about M hastily. If you don't know, you don't know. I hate to say this but talking to SHP ain't gonna help cause he don't know either. I have only recently chosen not to follow M's direction, agya and now feel free to speak out about many of the confusing situations he has set up. My choice is relatively easy. This forum was the last drip in a long series. I'd already decided I would have nothing more to do with his organization because of so many direct experiences of people being used, hurt and confused. I'd already decided I would never ever recommend anyone I know attend an introductory video. I'd already decided I would be extremely selective in follow M's advice. (In 1998 in warned about getting married. jesus christ almighty doesn't he have anything more to do than fuck with his premies minds.) When I discovered this page the other shoe dropped. It was easy. One reason is that I'd been involved. I'd had a lot of direct experiences of utter confusion and disgust. Words cannot replace these experiences. You have to have them for yourself. Here's what I think, though I know your not asking. Get actively involved in your local community. Become a pillar of that community. Do service 8 hours a day minimum at national events. Give money. Meditate minimum one hour per day. Bring people to events. Run videos. I am not kidding here. This will clarify your understanding. There will be no doubt in your mind. You will either be a devotee of the living perfect master or a dope on the ex-forum. There is no worse place to be than on the fence. The people on this forum have paid their dues. It was very expensive for some. Gotta pay your dues if you want to sing the blues cause you know it don't come easy. Spritzer please!
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Date: Fri, Mar 05, 1999 at 21:57:13 (EST)
From: SHP
Email: None
To: Zac
Subject: Zac and Denise
Message:
Zac (and Denise for clarification):

There are no requirements of 'active duty' to be considered a premie in good standing. He said to help out if you feel it.
Times must have changed, as they always do.

Practicing Knowledge is what it's all about, and anything else is gravy if we want it. Some people perceive M as one deserving of service and dedication, and the door is open to do that. Not compulsory or obligatory.
Knowledge is a gift, no payment required.
You know why it's called a gift? Because it's the present.
Pun intended, most appropriately.
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Date: Fri, Mar 05, 1999 at 22:14:42 (EST)
From: Zac
Email: None
To: SHP
Subject: I don't believe I'm doing this
Message:
My recommendations were for the benefit of Denise alone and are not to be construed as general recommendations for all premies.
That will come when I have learned everything from the guru and start my own cult.

But since you asked, service and satsang and darshan are some of the many gift's on the tree of knowledge according to you know who. I went to video's shp.
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Date: Sat, Mar 06, 1999 at 10:26:45 (EST)
From: SHP
Email: None
To: Zac
Subject: believe it or not
Message:
Infinite fruits on that tree, I heard the same tape. But there is no mention of being force-fed.
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Date: Sat, Mar 06, 1999 at 12:23:06 (EST)
From: Zac
Email: None
To: SHP
Subject: Did I mention force feeding?
Message:
Or do you always have to have the last word. My point to Denise was you have to try it before deciding whether you like it or not. She said she'd never tried those fruits. Did you think I was going overboard with the service recommendations? How do you think those programs run? Everyone puts in 1 hour and then hands off to the next guy. That's what the so-called recreational premies think. My advice of force feeding as you call it is to get the job done. If you sit on the sidelines, have your pictures, and your super cool knowledge it could take lifetimes to clarify your understanding of M. I am not speaking for M here in case you didn't notice. Force feeding indeed.
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Date: Sat, Mar 06, 1999 at 12:47:57 (EST)
From: SHP
Email: None
To: Zac
Subject: Zac, you implied....
Message:
that by doing all the things you listed, she would come to her (your?) conclusion faster, or her realization would be clearer. And I am saying one thing has nothing to do with the other.
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Date: Sat, Mar 06, 1999 at 12:54:11 (EST)
From: Zac
Email: None
To: SHP
Subject: Zac, you implied....
Message:
Why do you think one has nothing to do with the other?
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Date: Sat, Mar 06, 1999 at 13:19:30 (EST)
From: SHP
Email: None
To: Zac
Subject: Zac, you implied....
Message:
Zac,

My experience with Knowledge has not been based or dependent on the quantity of outer service or other activity I perform.
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Date: Sat, Mar 06, 1999 at 13:24:41 (EST)
From: Zac
Email: None
To: SHP
Subject: Fine I accept that. (nt)
Message:
nt
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Date: Sat, Mar 06, 1999 at 13:34:31 (EST)
From: SHP
Email: None
To: Zac
Subject: Fine I accept that.
Message:
Zac,

I just want to mention how nice it is to have a peaceful, civil dialog and thank you for your honest reply. Very refreshing!
I think deeper communication can happen in a calmer environment, whereas some think that being calm is passionless and watered down. I beg to differ. Although my heart is on fire my eyes are cold as ashes.

I was watching an old Kung Fu TV show this morning and the old blind Master Po said to young Kwai Chang, 'In a moment of uncertainty the wise man acknolwedges the uncertainly.' It was cool because it rang true, and I was acknowledging my own uncertainty around here and only in doing so could I move beyond it.
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Date: Sat, Mar 06, 1999 at 14:19:36 (EST)
From: Zac
Email: None
To: SHP
Subject: Fine I accept that.
Message:
You know another reason for (Denise or) anyone on the fence getting more involved at programs is not for the inner experience but to put herself in position to witness or directly experience some of the things that been reported repeatedly on this forum. What do you think about that?
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Date: Sat, Mar 06, 1999 at 14:35:46 (EST)
From: SHP
Email: None
To: Zac
Subject: Whatever you look for...
Message:
is what you will find. If someone looks for trouble they will find it. If someone looks for peace they will find it. You sound like you are giving instructions to an investigative reproter.
Anyway, service is not just the outer action, but the inner attitude when performing the outer action. The experience of service is inner. It would be impossible to both be skeptical and looking for dirt and experiencing service at the same time.
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Date: Sat, Mar 06, 1999 at 15:07:08 (EST)
From: Zac
Email: None
To: SHP
Subject: Whatever you look for..really?
Message:
Cause I been looking for a million dollars lately.
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Date: Sat, Mar 06, 1999 at 15:16:35 (EST)
From: SHP
Email: None
To: Zac
Subject: Whatever you look for..really?
Message:
If you really focus and concentrate and make your effort, you will find that million. How do you think the millionaires got theirs,
and I don't means the heirs to wealth? It could take you a lifetime, or you could die tryin', or it could take one trip to the conveninece store and buy a lucky lottery ticket. Life's a trip, ain't it?
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Date: Sat, Mar 06, 1999 at 15:19:44 (EST)
From: Zac
Email: None
To: SHP
Subject: Off to the store. Later (nt)
Message:
nt
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Date: Fri, Mar 05, 1999 at 22:21:13 (EST)
From: Denise
Email: None
To: SHP
Subject: SHP and Zac
Message:
Zac & SHP,

Yes, service never seems to have been stressed since I received K. The extent of my service in 16 years: was M.C. at one intro video, time total-probably 2 hours. Was a caller in a phone tree to pass on messages twice, total time: probably 1 hour. I may have done much more in my earlier days, but I honestly never even heard of service until just a few years ago.

Zac, have no intention of getting involved in my community, too many politics, too dysfunctional. Have been to two videos in the last 8 months. Haven't invited a new person to intro in 3 years, have no intention to in the future unless some things change which I won't go into.

Zac, the way I see it, SHP and I both need to work some things out and maybe since we're in the same place, SHP would be the best for reality-testing with. Some folks here I have to recuse as hostile witnesses.

SHP, I'll get with you soon. Am having some probs with my computer and email at the time, but will try to work it out this weekend and get with you. I'm a total amateur at this and think I screwed up some configuration or something.

Jim, if you read this, I may be the one to make a summary judgement about M, and yes, I know what the term means.

Y'all have a nice evening, I'm going to bed early. Bad karma has befallen me and I not only got injured in a car wreck (other side's fault, and yes, I have an attorney already) and am hurting, but have a sinus infection also, so I'm not in the best of places right now. Peace y'all, maybe I'll be visiting tomorrow.
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Date: Fri, Mar 05, 1999 at 22:40:54 (EST)
From: Miloochie
Email: None
To: Denise
Subject: Denise...before you sleep...
Message:
Jeez, very sorry to hear about the car bang-up. I've had too many of those. And, I once was run over (hit) by a speeding horse and went 42 feet from a standing position. Then he did a little dance on my whole body. 1600 hundred pounds at 25 miles an hour (full gallop). And me with no broken bones -- weird. Energy is supposed to dissipate -- I think I still have it in me!

They call me 'Lucky.'

Anyway...Denise, I miss you here. Really! Hope things work better for you in all areas.

All the best,

Miloochie

PS 'Can't be 'bad' karma. Could be just an 'accident.' Nothing more.
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Date: Sat, Mar 06, 1999 at 10:59:42 (EST)
From: SHP
Email: None
To: Denise
Subject: car stories
Message:
Denise,

Back in '71 when I was hitching through Ohio, I got a ride from a very quiet guy. We went over 100 miles without saying 10 words, and it felt weird. When I got out of the car (front right) and opened the back right door to get my bag, he floored it while my hand was caught in the door handle (the kind you have to grab and push a button with your thumb). Anyway, I got dragged for what seemed like a very long time, and he was going so fast that my body was flapping horizontally against the right rear quarter panel of the car. I could see over the seat into the dash that he was doing 75 when I finally got my hand loose. I was in free fall heading chin first towards the hiway surface. It was a sparkling
sunny day and the pebbles that make up the hiway surface started to shine like individual diamonds. Everything shifted into slow motion, I felt and saw a cocoon of crackling light surround me and I heard what sounded like a choir very loud in my ears with feedback and I heard the words 'not yet' echo in me. I hit the pavement three point - chin and palms. Stood up with a grin on my face that felt like the corners of my mouth were in my ears I was smiling so big, so happy to still be alive. Had some gravel embedded in my palms and my chin was bleeding. Got a ride to the next exit where there was a turnpike hospital and got 7 stitches in mhy chin. That was the extent of my injuries.

This experience popped into my brain like someone dropped a slide in my head 6 years later in the Poconos, before receiving Knowledge, the first time I saw Maharaji. He was talking about birth, death, and the dash on the gravestones that represent our time inbetween. It was one of those very personal moments.

Then in '89, I got rear-ended real bad. When I opened my eyes and looked into the rear-view mirror, I thought I was dead for a moment because the trunk had popped open and all I could see was black in the mirror (the car was black. Had another moment of extreme gratitude upon finding out that I was still alive. Was flat on my back for a month and still have some nerve interruption in my lower back.

So Denise, if somebody comes along and trashes my stories or tries to minimize them, don't be surprised.

Hope you are feeling better and your computer problems get resolved.
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Date: Sat, Mar 06, 1999 at 12:09:44 (EST)
From: Robyn
Email: sundogs@hotmail.com
To: SHP
Subject: car stories
Message:
Dear Sandy,
I don't find your stories outrageous, unless outrageously great. I have also had what I call, 'day time visions', not to do with near death but I have experienced a similar thing in my own life. Thanks for telling your's here.
Love,
Robyn
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Date: Fri, Mar 05, 1999 at 22:43:19 (EST)
From: Zac
Email: None
To: Denise
Subject: The Perfect Master Theory
Message:
This is the final lynchpin and there is no answer to it. I mean Jesus was a crazy demanding sonofabitch, told the rich man to give all his money away if he wanted to follow him. Krishna wanted Arjuna to kill his relatives. Buddha wanted all his followers to carry a begging bowl. These things don't make sense.

So the question is what if all these things said on the forum are true yet he is the living Perfect Master of our Time?

to be continued.....
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Date: Fri, Mar 05, 1999 at 23:11:43 (EST)
From: Robyn
Email: sundogs@hotmail.com
To: Zac
Subject: The Perfect Master Theory
Message:
Dear Zac,
Hi Zac, I love your name. Anyway, if what you say in this post is true I don't give a rat's ass. Who gives a shit, if he hurts people and only looks out for himself, he doesn't care about kids or the poor or the sick, no one. He is like Michael Jackson with the germs. If he is the living lord, it figures... like a blue light special at K Mart or Walmart. It's all bells and whistles and smoke screens. If that is the way, I will be happy in my unrealized path of ignorance where I can respect myself, what I do and the person I am, not deny my own doubts and common sence. God gave us common sence, our minds, our WHOLE human selves. I think the least we can do is be conscience and aware and not a zombie following a self centered dying icon.
Love,
Robyn
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Date: Fri, Mar 05, 1999 at 23:31:55 (EST)
From: Helen
Email: None
To: Robyn
Subject: Blue Light Special at Kmart
Message:
Go girl, love the part about the blue light special at Kmart /Walmart !! Great!

Is Selene the one who said that Abbie Hoffman or Rennie Davis said that if GM is the Lord than he's the Lord America deserves? I love that!! I think she said it's on the LOTU video.
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Date: Sat, Mar 06, 1999 at 00:33:48 (EST)
From: Robyn
Email: sundogs@hotmail.com
To: Helen
Subject: Blue Light Special at Kmart
Message:
Dear Helen,
Yes, 'GM is the Lord than he's the Lord America deserves', is from LOTU, that was a great line. :)
Love,
Robyn
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Date: Sat, Mar 06, 1999 at 09:39:41 (EST)
From: Jerry
Email: None
To: Helen
Subject: Blue Light Special at Kmart
Message:
Abbie Hoffman said it. Rennie Davis was a premie.
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Date: Fri, Mar 05, 1999 at 23:56:37 (EST)
From: bill
Email: None
To: Zac
Subject: gadzooks
Message:
Leaving the rawat family programming is messy.
Any thoughts that rawat is some enlightened person
can be squelched by visiting his web site. Read the so-called
poetry.

Zac, each of the guys you mentioned, buddha, krishna, and
yeshua/jesus, should not be considered the same or in
some official marketing arm of the 'oneness' or god.

The guy called buddha can be best removed from some exalted
status by merely reading his words and story as told by those
who penned the first quotes of his. They don't stand up to
any clear scrutiny whatsoever.
That doesn't stop those that are programmed to be buddhists
from ASSUMING he was the 'perfect master'.

There was never a blue man. Krishna was not tape recorded
on some battlefield. There was never a person yet that could
accomplish this supposed quote from krishna 'he who identifies
himself with the divine attains that oneness'
All the guru's that litter the streets of the indian continent
are hanging on to that sentence and have now developed a
tradition of employment by pretending to have 'attained the
'avsilusf' nirvana state' and now can be looked at as god
by those that are going to sucker in for devotee status.
Thank you krishna.

Where Jesus/yeshua did you a favor, was to get a large
part of the humans to sign on to a belief that they aren't
getting beyond human nature in this life and that the
self concious power reccomends loving it, your neighbor,
and yourself.

Rawat, the perfect master of life, has a nasty track record
that cannot be nutshelled adequately. His idea of love is
shun your mom for 17 years till she dies and then realize
you were a fool. what was that quote you mentioned about
marriage that you said earlier in the thread?
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Date: Sat, Mar 06, 1999 at 08:32:21 (EST)
From: Zac
Email: None
To: Bill, Robyn,Helen
Subject: Easy Guys & Gals
Message:
Thanks for finishing my post for me. I wrote that post that way because ultimately I don't have an answer for that one other than how I feel about his actions, regardless of his supposed inate place in the Universe. And I wanted Denise and others to think about it for themselves before I add my two cents. I believe many premies who read the forum are facing this question. Personally I just couldn't hack it anymore, then my brain kicked in. It also appears that Denise is fed up with the organization, doesn't want anything to do with video or introductory programs so it's boiled down to her and her Guru Maharaji.

Question: What is Guru Maharaji's responsibility as Perfect Master? (Let's hear what he had to say on the subject)

GM: RESPONSIBILITIEEEEEES? RESPONSIBILITIEEEEEEES? (makes funny face and laughs) Maharaji doesn't have any responsibilities!

Well there you have it. Maharaji denies having any responsibilities regarding teaching knowledge. If he f**ks up and it f**ks you up. It's a big F**k you!

The above answer was given in response to an aspirant asking M about the responsibility of the student and the responsibility of the master. It's on video circa 1996-1998.
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Date: Sat, Mar 06, 1999 at 08:57:31 (EST)
From: Zac
Email: None
To: Everyone
Subject: Furthermore.....
Message:
That Mahrji has no responsibilities is his position now; It was his position when Dinosaurs like Jagdeo roamed the earth and it will be his position as long as he is in business. Because it's the 'Perfect' Contract.
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Date: Sat, Mar 06, 1999 at 15:21:38 (EST)
From: Helen
Email: None
To: Zac
Subject: Easy Guys & Gals
Message:
Amazing that he said that about responsibilities. Well there you have it, everyone. The Master speaks! Thanks Zac
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Date: Sat, Mar 06, 1999 at 13:45:01 (EST)
From: Jim
Email: None
To: bill
Subject: pet peeve time - Bill
Message:
Bill,

Will you please knock this 'Jesus /Yeshua' trip off? I mean it seems like you've hit this one BIG fact, that Joseph and Mary didn't speak english, and you're trying to proseltyze the 'true' name of Jesus. Christ! (hey, that's pretty funny, eh?) Really, Bill, who gives a flying fuck? We all know who we're talking about, Jesus is indeed the name he's got now, in this time, in english and, besides, your preferred spelling and pronunciation are probably innacurate too. Who cares (besides you, that is)?
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Date: Sat, Mar 06, 1999 at 13:56:32 (EST)
From: SHP
Email: None
To: Jim
Subject: point of order
Message:
In the words of Jesus a.k.a.
Yeshua
Joshua
Jesus Christ
Jesus the Chirst
Prince of Peace
Wonderful Counselor
Messiah,
'Do unto others as you would have others do unto you.'
Burns, doesn't it? But it's a good burn, a purifying burn.
You'll still exist, what burns isn't you, it's what you don't need. You won't miss it when it's gone and you'll get along better with others and still be able to make your points.
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Date: Sat, Mar 06, 1999 at 14:54:51 (EST)
From: Happy
Email: None
To: Zac, Bill
Subject: never a blue man
Message:
In my part of the world, it's late. Just checked in on the forum
for a few seconds. Zac, I really loved your first post to Denise.
Very good!
And Bill, your line about 'there never was a blue man' was poetry. Which Little M never could have written. It made my day (night).
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Date: Sat, Mar 06, 1999 at 15:37:51 (EST)
From: SHP
Email: None
To: Happy
Subject: My friend Jim Bush was blue
Message:
as a blueberry stain on a white tablecloth. He had a heart condition and passed away, but he was a blue man and he was a friend of mine.
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Date: Sun, Mar 07, 1999 at 00:51:03 (EST)
From: bill
Email: None
To: Jim
Subject: jeeze
Message:
well, to be honest, I'm sick to death of the name jesus.
and actually, the name is yeheshua.

I use it to throw off some of the guys I see regularly
because they all treat that collection of letters as if it
was somehow holy.

I figure another annoyance would be 'self aware
origional intelligence'
I use that one as a bow to dawkins and the scientific
enthusiasts.
If there is a s.c.o.i. , I dont think anyone has nailed down the
accurate analysis of it's nature yet.

I didn't like your last two vacations and I won't like this one.
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Date: Fri, Mar 05, 1999 at 06:56:16 (EST)
From: Happy
Email: None
To: Everyone
Subject: God collects watches
Message:
I have been busy trying to do some work, not only reading the forum, didn't have much time to participate - but now I can't
keep it all in...

I have been reading through the recent threads, and these are some personal comments:

About M's curriculum vitae:

I just can't believe all the garbage Mr. Rawat has written in his resumé: '...attended St. Joseph's Academy...' when everybody knows St. Joseph's Academy is just secondary school, and he in fact dropped out at age 13! Since that, he has not attended any school, neither graduated. What a filthy try to make himself look good.

And what is this thing, him being a collector of watches??? Doesn't God have better things to do??

And lying about a patent??

I do think that it is an excellent idea to try to get someone to make a TV documentary.

There's been a lot of discussion lately about hate and anger towards M, and whether or not it's ok to feel impatience when people want to sit on the fence and don't want to accept 'facts' (I personally think they are, facts. I think the truth about M is in fact much worse than you expect.)

I must admit that I personally belong to those who would love to see M. Rawat fry for what he has done. I see nothing positive in him at all.

I also think that those of his followers who keep saying 'ok, he has done some mistakes, but I think he has delivered', or 'maybe he screwed it up in the 70s, but now everything is different' should take a better look at the evidence. I find that kind of attitude either cynical or childish. If they (you) admit that he has behaved in unethically, cheated, lied, hurt people - and still (they) you accept him?

Ok, I hold a lot personally against him, as I have said before. I had a wife who was totally obsessed, which ruined our family and damaged our children psychologically. A friend of mine committed suicide. Another friend was a millionaire, but donated most of what he owned to M. The list could go on. No, M. should fry. If there is karma, and if there is a God, M. will have a hard time when the time comes to pay for what he has done.
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Date: Fri, Mar 05, 1999 at 09:58:18 (EST)
From: Jerry
Email: None
To: Happy
Subject: God the hyprocrite
Message:
I just can't believe all the garbage Mr. Rawat has written in his resumé: '...attended St. Joseph's Academy...' when everybody knows St. Joseph's Academy is just secondary school, and he in fact dropped out at age 13! Since that, he has not attended any school, neither graduated. What a filthy try to make himself look good.

What I find most revealing about M's 'resume' is that if somebody else would have tried to impress in this manner he would be the first to ridicule. I hope premies can stare at that truth long enough without being blinded by it. M's satsang are loaded with the folly of man. Why doesn't he take that same critique and say look at how foolish I've been, me and my St. Joseph's Academy, my watch collection, my pilot's license, etc. instead of trying to look good by it?

Fucking hyprocrite.
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Date: Fri, Mar 05, 1999 at 11:24:51 (EST)
From: Jim
Email: None
To: Jerry
Subject: God collects hypocrites
Message:
Or does he make them?
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Date: Fri, Mar 05, 1999 at 11:10:01 (EST)
From: Freewheeling
Email: None
To: Happy
Subject: God collects watches
Message:
Happy:

I have an Omega Seamaster Cosmic that was given me by my grandfather. It never kept decent time. There aren't any 'classic' watches that can begin to compete with modern quartz movements. Typical he'd collect that crap. Mind you, the Omega has a lot of sentimental value for me.

FW
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Date: Sat, Mar 06, 1999 at 15:04:10 (EST)
From: Happy
Email: None
To: Freewheeling
Subject: Omega Seamaster Cosmic
Message:
Keep it, don't send it to the Lard. He'd never understand its Cosmic value.

Once, a premie in his 'Love and Devotion' gave the Bog a car, which, according to the Omnipotent, was too short. He cut it in half, and told his faithful to prolongue it. They never succeeded.
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Date: Sat, Mar 06, 1999 at 20:17:07 (EST)
From: Annie
Email: None
To: Happy
Subject: God collects watches
Message:
I just discovered this page..I've had doubt's ...lost custody of my children over M, and then dug in deeper. now I want to disconnect. I still see and feel him in my heart. i fell in love with him. i was so shoked when i read that website that is no longer, but it really created a wake up call in my life. I ordered that big book of photos and just cried when I gazed into his eyes in each photo..about 2 days later i found the website. now i am in BIG DOUBT. ANGRY. and where was I back then in the 70's ...in a bad space in my life, unstable and 'M gave me love' ..what a joke, was i duped ! but getting over this 20+ year (unreal) romance ! where do I turn? is there help. i don't want to smear him, just help me and my heart. he can deal with his own issues/karma. i need peace, happiness, quiet. i still meditate - i teach meditation and yoga, enjoy Buddhism carefully. i want to open my eyes and see and HEAR. WATCHES, i remember those jokes abouat the watches, that stupid jeep golden eagle, all that rediculousness of Holi at the Orange Bowl and campkng in Kissamee - 6am til midnight : was I nuts?????? all that money, I feel betrayed. Where is this resume? is there someone out there who kowns de-programming....i remember see tv shows about deprogrammers and kidnapping from Moonies...is M as bad as Moon? No matter, it's their life, i need to straigtened out mine. I'm scared. I still can see his feet. i remember the feelings. the darshan like it was yesterday. i want it to go away. what's with Durjaji and the children - are they just as screwed up as he is? it this all about Men, Sex Power and Money ???
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Date: Sat, Mar 06, 1999 at 20:47:06 (EST)
From: Jim
Email: None
To: Annie
Subject: Don'y worry, Annie
Message:
Annie,

It gets better, believe me. You might have lost a lord but you've gained one hell of a story. As a silver lining that might seem a little thin but there are others. And look at it this way, you don't have to hate your mind after all. Nice, eh?
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Date: Sat, Mar 06, 1999 at 22:35:21 (EST)
From: Katie
Email: None
To: Annie
Subject: To Annie - Help?
Message:
Hi Annie -
Your post really touched me - you sound like you are in so much pain. I can tell you is that the other ex-premies here have been through what you are going through now - some of them are still going through it. I know it's very painful, but it does get better. As far as some kind of help through the process, many people have found that writing and reading on the forum has helped them a lot. Also, many people here have been through some kind of exit counseling (not really 'deprogramming', but with similar goals) and/or therapy. I wish I could give you more specifics on this - other people here may be able to.

If you haven't already read it, I highly recommend the 'Breaking Free' section on this site. Click on the link below to go there:
Breaking Free.
Read both sections - the one 'for family and friends' contains a list of places on the Internet where you might be able to find help (there is a similar list on the Links page of this site - this also contains a link to Maharaji's own page at www.maharaji.org, which has the resume on it).

Take care of yourself - and please keep in touch.
Katie
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Date: Sun, Mar 07, 1999 at 10:10:10 (EST)
From: Robyn
Email: sundogs@hotmail.com
To: Annie
Subject: God collects watches
Message:
Dear Annie,
Jesus, I'd be angry too, and you've been storing this up for years. I hope you can find some help from the lists Katie mentioned. I know if you come here you will get lots of good support. It is like a big group therapy/social hour thing we've got going here and even though I personally wasn't hurt by the cult, in and out early on, this place has helped me sort out the heaps of other stuff I need to deal with.
From what I hear it is hard to find a counselor who knows about cults also but maybe that comined with the forum would be helpful.
I wish you all the best and hope to see you here again soon.
Love,
Robyn
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Date: Sun, Mar 07, 1999 at 14:33:59 (EST)
From: eb
Email: zoloftian@hotmail.com
To: Annie
Subject: To Annie
Message:
Hi Annie,

I remember loving Maharaji enough to give up everything. It was long ago, but I do remember sitting with him in so many arenas, so many venues, tears streaming down my face. I never wanted to leave him. I never wanted to return home. I loved him so much that I wanted there to be no more me. I remember hanging onto his every word, hoping he would glance my way, praying that he would take pity on me, the weak and the weary, the wretch that I was. Several times I came close to leaving my kids and staying in Miami to devote my life to him. That's the part of your story that hurts me the most--of all the losses premies experienced, losing custody of kids has got to hurt the most (IMHO).

When I found this Forum, I read all the archives and followed the current threads for a long time before posting because I was still so caught up in the brainwashing. After I became brave enough to post, the programming unravelled very quickly. I contacted a couple of the people who left email addresses, and their support and feedback has helped me a lot. Without this site, I don't believe I would ever have been able to rid myself of the premie mindset.

I still have a lot of issues I'm trying to deal with that, I believe, attracted me to Maharaji in the first place. Like you, I came to him when I was very unstable and believed that he could give me what I was looking for. He couldn't. I'm having to learn how to deal with stuff that I probably needed to deal with when I was teenager. Better late than never, I guess.

Feel free to email me if you wish.
With love,
eb
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Date: Sun, Mar 07, 1999 at 17:58:39 (EST)
From: Helen
Email: None
To: Annie
Subject: To Annie
Message:
Hi Annie,

eb mentioned being one of the weary and weak in her Maharaji days. We all were weary and weak at some point. But Maharaji took advantage of that for his own gain. It's so much better to try to empower people when they feel weak and weary than to make them feel that they are helpless on their own.

I'm real sorry about your kids. But it's NEVER too late to slowly put all the pieces together. SLOWLY because you've been into this for a long time. I read somewhere a prayer that said 'Dear God, I don't care if I'm growing fast, just as long as I'm growing.'

There's a lot of support here, but I agree that therapy's great too IF you have someone who understands what happens to the mind in cults.

And remember--your mind is NOT your enemy, but it IS your friend.

Love from'

Helen
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Date: Sun, Mar 07, 1999 at 21:32:55 (EST)
From: Gail
Email: freedom@gtn.net
To: Annie
Subject: Annie: Get your Gun! (long)
Message:
You'll need it to shoot all these ideas you have been brainwashed into believing. You poor thing! I know exactly how you feel. I found this site last June, 1998. After an hour, I began to feel a sickening feeling in the pit of my stomach. I was also shocked to see what these exs were saying, but it all made sense. They were verbalizing all the doubts I'd always had. Within a few days, the whole ball of yarn started unravelling.

Losing custody of your children must have really hurt you deeply. Of course, as any good premie would, you probably rationalized it as a big test the Lord was putting you through. I hope you see your children. Soon you will be feeling better and running your own life. Probably, you will be able to see your children a lot more if that's what you'd like. You don't have to surrender to bad news, anymore--you have choices.

I thought I felt him in my heart and loved him, too, but rationally, how can you love someone you don't even know? I am still very angry about the whole thing. I received Knowledge in 1974, so I wasted a lot of time in Guru Maharaj Ji's cult.

We old timers have certainly seen and been through a lot. We've seen MJ reinvent himself by changing his name three times and changing his organization's name twice, to escape the media, eh? We've also seen him modify the techniques and methodology for practising. Yes, indeed, we've seen cult revisionism time and time again.

That wake up call really does take an ex-premie back to the space (s)he was in before the cult. The nasty parts of our lives didn't go away--we just burried them. Now, we have to work on the issues that drove us to the cult in the first place.

It is wonderful that you want to open your eyes and see and hear. Personally, I found that I needed Prozac for a few months because I was hysterical and miserable a lot of the time. This is due to post-traumatic syndrome. Leaving MJ's cult is a lot like leaving a concentration camp. After years of abuse, most individuals need time and help to feel better. Currently, I am in therapy with a very likeable psychiatrist. You may find that you don't need drug therapy or formal counselling. Everyone is different.

I liked Holi at the Orange Bowl and camping in Kissimee and a lot of other cult activities. I had a lot of fun. This was due to a) good friends and b) believing I chosen to be with the Lord of the Universe. There was a lot of negative stuff, too, such as freezing my butt every night in Kissimee and in Australia, 1992. The amount of money we spent in connexion with the cult is astronomical, and it's best not to dwell on it too much.

You should feel betrayed. Maharaji lied to you by telling you that he was the returned messiah and that his knowledge was the practical knowledge of god. His claims have never and will never be substantiated. We wanted to believe it all, so we did. We wanted to escape our trouble existences with MJ's fantasy world, and we did. Nevertheless, he is ultimately responsible for this mess--not his handlers, the government, god, etc.--JUST MAHARAJI. Is Maharaji just as bad as Sung Mung Moon? Yes, he is. Anyone who knowingly uses cheat and deceit to enslave others for their money and adoration is a wicked person.

Remember the idea that only the Lord could accept the devotion (such as toe kissing) without having his ego blow up. Remember us being told that MJ is the most humble of all humans. This is total nonsense. MJ is a walking meglomaniac. To quote, 'Why do I wear these expensive suits? Because I can afford to.' Meanwhile, his affluence is due to premie donations. As you can see from your own community, Annie, this cult is shrinking, not growing. As long as his lifestyle is being supported, I don't think he cares. He's certainly taking his sweet time to fulfill his promise, 'I DECLARE I WILL ESTABLISH PEACE IN THIS WORLD.' He establishes peace alright. His premies slowly fall to pieces over the years.

Look around. How many happy, glowing premies come to the video events in your city? Besides, if he is not the lord and K is not knowledge of god, then what sort of service is he providing mankind with?

Marolyn (Durga Ji) and the children are doing very well. Many outrages things are said about MJ and Marolyn, but these claims have not been proven. you might consider this--these people who are doing the talking believed he was the lord, too. They got to see things that the average premie is not privy to. Some of the people who post here were rather like cabinet ministers. I was just a backbencher, so I know nothing about his sexual affairs or drug abuse. I do know that I am glad to be away from his clutches.

What's it all about? The God business, Hindu tradition, sex, sadism (MJ), masochism (premies), power and Millions, upon millions of dollars??? You got that right!

Well, Annie, start shooting those concepts. Geez, for a conceptless cult, we sure bought into a lot of ideas, didn't we. It will get easier for you. All the best.

Love,

Gail C. MacDougall
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Date: Sun, Mar 07, 1999 at 21:42:45 (EST)
From: Miloochie
Email: None
To: Gail
Subject: Wow, Gail...well done! (nt)
Message:
Moving...
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Date: Sun, Mar 07, 1999 at 22:02:02 (EST)
From: Gerry
Email: None
To: Miloochie
Subject: Wow, Gail...well done!
Message:
ditto, Gail,

It takes a lot to bring tears to my Neanderthal eyes, but you just did it, girl. You are a hero as far as I'm concerned. I mean it.

Love ya,

G the N
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Date: Sun, Mar 07, 1999 at 22:13:58 (EST)
From: g's mom
Email: None
To: Gail
Subject: Gail, wonderful post! (nt)
Message:
nt
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Date: Mon, Mar 08, 1999 at 06:13:04 (EST)
From: cp
Email: None
To: annie
Subject: Print Gails post
Message:
and keep it in your pocket.
Thats a suggestion to get you through the next few days.
You must feel like you woke up tangled in a rope. Dont worry, it slowly starts to unravell. Now that you can regard you mind and thinking as a friend. It can help you with good sense and reliable instinct.
I can relate to what you say about falling in love. Long after I had lost faith and interest in M as lord, I was still drawn to him- at the same time he made me sick. I couldnt figure it out. I thought it must be mind, but it was my gut feelings trying to warn me.
Many of us have lost huge chunks out of our lives. The 70s were crazy times.
Go easy on yourself.
If anything in the threads on the forum spark something in you,even if you dont make alot of sense, toss your two cents in. You will see that there are quite a few of us that go ahead and spout off- in the most disjointed ways.
Why just last night I was firing posts off from under a henna mud cone and the posts went all over the place.
So dont think that being lucid is a requirement.
The Neanderthals even patrol the borders.
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Date: Tues, Mar 09, 1999 at 18:44:27 (EST)
From: MaryM
Email: mem_mcgraw@msn.com
To: Happy
Subject: God collected my watch!
Message:
Speaking of watches....

Do ex-premies have any venue to pursue family heirloom possessions, such as my grandmother's watch? I was coerced by quite an adamant mahatma in London 74 ish... into releasing this possession (Maya) for the furtherment of M's mission.

If he still has my grandmothers watch, I can certainly identify it and obtain sworn statements as to its value.

How could I find out if Marilyn, Claudia, Monica, or any of his sundry mistresses have it? Would one of his daughters have it?

Does anyone know if Kathy Cituk is still involved with M. If so, I'll contact her family to try to put a bug in M.s ear to give it back.

As for the rest..... Elan Vital, Gratitude.... it's all baloney no matter how ya slice it kids! Hey let's be realistic, he's a guy suffering from a classic case of 'Napolean Complex'. Can't say at 5'11' that I'll ever understand it. Just happy to be free of him.

Cheers,
Mary
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