My Responses to your additional questions
I don’t recall Maharaji ever really caring about the welfare of anybody
but himself and his family.

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Michael Dettmers -:- My responses to your additional questions -:- Fri, Oct 13, 2000 at 21:03:24 (GMT)

__ Katie -:- Thank you, Michael -:- Sat, Oct 14, 2000 at 03:24:22 (GMT)

__ __ Katie -:- P.S. to MD and all re empty posts -:- Sat, Oct 14, 2000 at 03:27:30 (GMT)

__ __ __ Salam -:- P.S. to MD and all re empty posts -:- Sat, Oct 14, 2000 at 03:46:26 (GMT)

__ __ __ __ Brian -:- re empty posts -:- Sun, Oct 15, 2000 at 05:08:22 (GMT)

__ __ __ __ Katie -:- Salam, I have the exact same picture in my head!nt -:- Sat, Oct 14, 2000 at 03:50:30 (GMT)

__ SUCHABANANA -:- NO Talk? DLM REVENUES,ASSETS,M EXPENSES,TRANSFERS? -:- Fri, Oct 13, 2000 at 23:35:06 (GMT)

__ janet of venice -:- 2 empty posts-is someone jamming you?? -:- Fri, Oct 13, 2000 at 22:10:03 (GMT)

__ __ hamzen -:- Really appreciate your honesty and openess, -:- Sat, Oct 14, 2000 at 00:22:41 (GMT)

__ __ __ Michael Dettmers -:- Really appreciate your honesty and openess, -:- Sat, Oct 14, 2000 at 00:57:18 (GMT)

__ __ Cynthia G. -:- Thank you -:- Sat, Oct 14, 2000 at 00:08:11 (GMT)

__ __ Susan -:- the power of validation -:- Fri, Oct 13, 2000 at 23:13:38 (GMT)

__ __ __ Helen -:- Susan, Michael -:- Sat, Oct 14, 2000 at 02:51:41 (GMT)

__ __ Joe -:- Wow... -:- Fri, Oct 13, 2000 at 22:57:43 (GMT)

__ __ Jerry -:- You're a godsend, Michael -:- Fri, Oct 13, 2000 at 22:40:30 (GMT)

__ __ __ ham -:- And fits exactly all the other descriptions of him -:- Fri, Oct 13, 2000 at 23:59:05 (GMT)

__ __ Bin Liner -:- My responses to your additional questions -:- Fri, Oct 13, 2000 at 22:18:50 (GMT)

__ __ Don't worry -:- Text will appear in a little while, by his grace. -:- Fri, Oct 13, 2000 at 22:09:07 (GMT)

__ janet of venice -:- wheres the text? i was highly interested -:- Fri, Oct 13, 2000 at 21:15:13 (GMT)

__ __ Jim -:- Obviously he's got nothing further to say -:- Fri, Oct 13, 2000 at 21:19:34 (GMT)

__ __ __ Jim -:- Mike, it looks like you tried again but..... -:- Fri, Oct 13, 2000 at 22:07:08 (GMT)

__ __ __ __ janet of venice -:- try this as safety measure -:- Fri, Oct 13, 2000 at 22:19:45 (GMT)

__ __ __ __ __ Sir Dave -:- try this as safety measure -:- Fri, Oct 13, 2000 at 23:14:17 (GMT)

__ __ __ __ __ __ Tonette -:- Or is all else fails..... -:- Sat, Oct 14, 2000 at 03:35:55 (GMT)

Date: Fri, Oct 13, 2000 at 21:03:24 (GMT)
From: Michael Dettmers
Email: dettmers@gylanix.com
To: Joe
Subject: My responses to your additional questions
Message:

Joe,

Some quick responses to the additional questions you asked in your thread below.

Does your confidentiality agreement extend to things that happened prior to the date of the agreement, back when you were dutifully doing full time service as an ashram premie and had no contract?

Yes.

Did Maharaji ever talk about the welfare of the devotees who were working on the project, and did he consider how they might feel when he sold the plane they had worked on for years?

I don’t recall Maharaji ever really caring, in a consistent way, about the welfare of anybody but himself, Marolyn and his children. Why would he care about how premies might feel when he sold the plane? He always had plenty of more projects up to keep us focused on him.

How much did he get for the plane, by the way?

This is one of those questions that I shouldn’t answer. I will say this, however. We didn’t get very much money for it because, when we tried to sell it, we discovered that there really wasn’t much of a market for it. It was, after all, an old aircraft, very inefficient to operate, and wasn’t configured for corporate use.

In what ways, in particular, did the ashrams fail, according to Maharaji? How did that manifest, in his opinion? Did he talk about it? How much personal consideration did Maharaji put into closing the ashrams, and did he consider how that might affect the lives of those people? Did he, in any respect, recognize the severe contradiction in pushing people to move into the ashrams, which he said were life-long committments, and then just closing them? Did people around him discuss this?

Even though I strongly recommended that the ashrams be closed, I was not involved in their closing, nor was I a party to all of the conversations on this issue. But yes, this was a topic of considerable discussion with Maharaji and others. Especially in the aftermath of DECA, it was obvious that there wasn’t an infrastructure in place necessary to fulfill the “mutual” responsibilities implied in the ashram covenant, as you so correctly point out. The discussions about what constituted an appropriate infrastructure seemed very costly as well as bureaucratic to Maharaji. In his experience, it was so much easier in India. The ashrams there were self-sufficient communities with premies and mahatmas of all ages, and supported by the larger community of premies. They did not need to deal with issues of health insurance and OSHA requirements, etc.

So Maharaji, in effect, threw up his hands in frustration because the financial resources were limited, and if we spent those limited resources on creating an infrastructure that avoided the kind of abuse that took place at DECA, there would be precious little money left for Maharaji to live in the style to which he had become accustomed, and to which he felt he was entitled. So the ashrams failed because the legitimate needs of the ashram premies became more of a burden than an asset to Maharaji. To him, it was all supposed to be so simple. The devotee gives everything to his lord, the lord plays and everyone lives happily ever after. He expected unquestioned devotion but he never took a serious interest in the welfare of the people who had dedicated their lives to him. Of course, in this sick game, I and a few others were well taken care of. Cult hierarchies are inequitable by there very nature and, when I look back, I am ashamed that I was ever a part of it. So, in the end, Maharaji decided that, instead of trying to create a support structure that covered all of the ashram premies, he limited that support structure to the instructors.

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Date: Sat, Oct 14, 2000 at 03:24:22 (GMT)
From: Katie
Email: katie@ex-premie.org
To: Michael Dettmers
Subject: Thank you, Michael
Message:

I really appreciate this post and the other ones you made recently. I think most of us have had the experience of having only one little piece of the Maharaji puzzle when we found this site and forum and then suddenly getting a LOT more pieces to fit in with it. (I would guess that this experience was similar for you as well.) And learning what someone who was actually around Maharaji saw as being his feelings and motivations is very helpful - most of us can only guess. What you have said about him definitely fits in with the picture that other people have begun to put together here.

My feeling is that many people here - particularly those who were involved for a long time, or who lived in the ashram - would like an apology from Maharaji. Or at least some sort of admission that HE made mistakes - accountability, if you will. Judging from what you have said, and from what other people have said about him, I think the possibility of Maharaji accepting any kind of responsibility for anything - or even acknowledging that people were hurt - is extremely unlikely.

You wrote:
Of course, in this sick game, I and a few others were well taken care of. Cult hierarchies are inequitable by there very nature and, when I look back, I am ashamed that I was ever a part of it.

I REALLY appreciate you saying this - thank you. It can't have been easy to write, or to come to terms with. I know there are a lot of things that you cannot talk about because of your confidentiality agreement, but frankly, I am far more interested in your feelings about your involvement than in the details of Maharaji's business dealings. And I think hearing about how you felt, and how you feel now, could help a lot of people who post (and the even greater number of people who read) this forum.

I have a request - although it may be something you do not want to do. Would you consider writing a Journeys entry for ex-premie.org? Obviously we could take your forum posts and make a web page out of them, but they don't say very much about how you became involved and the history of your involvement. I understand that you might not want such a document to be available to a web search - particularly because you have your own web page and business, but you do not have to put your last name on it (I do not have my last name on mine because of some things I have said about my family in the entry.) I hope you'll consider this.

Thanks again and take care -
Katie

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Date: Sat, Oct 14, 2000 at 03:27:30 (GMT)
From: Katie
Email: None
To: all
Subject: P.S. to MD and all re empty posts
Message:

The empty posts are caused by a server routing problem, which we can't fix from our end, and which is extremely frustrating (especially to the programmer :)!) Everyone should know, though, that the posts ALWAYS show up eventually (at least so far). This has been a problem ever since our server moved to a different physical location.

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Date: Sat, Oct 14, 2000 at 03:46:26 (GMT)
From: Salam
Email: None
To: Katie
Subject: P.S. to MD and all re empty posts
Message:

Very funny. The posts are wizzing around the plant because the router is too confused figuring out the best route.

hahaha

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Date: Sun, Oct 15, 2000 at 05:08:22 (GMT)
From: Brian
Email: brian@ex-premie.org
To: Salam
Subject: re empty posts
Message:

The problem first appeared after the company hosting the site was swallowed up by a larger 'Bad Music On Eternal Hold' company, and moved to their servers in Maryland. The new location used to house AOL - a bad sign. Maybe AOL moved and left their tech people with the building...

When Katie used the term 'server routing problem' she was describing her understanding of my explanation to her. And my explanation is admittedly vague, since I haven't been able to get through to 'Tech Support' yet.

The problem isn't due to internet (global) routing, although it may be caused by routing on the server's local network. My best guess goes something like this:

Due to some other network process running 'randomly', the server is not correctly fetching the contents of files created while the other process is running. If this were only happening when they do tape backups, for instance, that would explain the apparent 'randomness' of the times involved.

But even if they were buffering the files temporarily on another disk during backup, any file that Perl finds and opens should be able to be read correctly. That isn't happening, so the problem seems to involve disk buffers not being written to properly, perhaps due to misdirected packets. Since the problem is most apparent in larger posts, I suspect that disk buffer size, or packet count, is a factor.

The pre-existing index file is being updated correctly and the new listing appears in the index, so the problem seems to only affect newly created files rather than updated files. But this may alternately be due to the index file not having exceeded a size threshold that triggers the problem.

Sometimes the post contents aren't correctly read for 8 hours after the file was created! Yet I've been able to FTP to the site and download the file to my computer during this 'dead' time. Everything is where it should be in the file, yet the machine that the script is run on isn't able to retrieve the contents - even though the 'open file' function returns no error.

Since the length of the 'dead time' seems to vary, the problem may simply persist until some periodic machine reset takes place somewhere on their network.

Anyway, I'll keep trying this week to get through to them. Either they rectify the problem, or I'll start looking for another server.

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Date: Sat, Oct 14, 2000 at 03:50:30 (GMT)
From: Katie
Email: None
To: Salam
Subject: Salam, I have the exact same picture in my head!nt
Message:

nt

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Date: Fri, Oct 13, 2000 at 23:35:06 (GMT)
From: SUCHABANANA
Email: None
To: Michael Dettmers
Subject: NO Talk? DLM REVENUES,ASSETS,M EXPENSES,TRANSFERS?
Message:

NT

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Date: Fri, Oct 13, 2000 at 22:10:03 (GMT)
From: janet of venice
Email: None
To: michael dettmers
Subject: 2 empty posts-is someone jamming you??
Message:

michael, you have tried twice to post your words and both times they have come up blank. yet the thread posted. i wrote the FA about it. we do want to hear what you have to say. my posts are going up just fine. wanna email your text to me and i'll try putting it up? i can ccp it and slap it up here.

 

Jai_Choix@webtv.net

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Date: Sat, Oct 14, 2000 at 00:22:41 (GMT)
From: hamzen
Email: None
To: Michael Dettmers
Subject: Really appreciate your honesty and openess,
Message:

and I'm intrigued as to the process of how you have come to terms with the wasted time and effort which you hinted at in a previous post.

From another angle it has struck me for a while that it's his stage show, and the confidence/arrogance while on stage, that enabled him to con so successfully, admittedly one of the naivest groups of people ever, what a bunch of innocents, even for hippies we were.
Any info re his psychological states before he went on stage, or other relevant materials re this topic area would be much appreciated. We still see premies believing he REALLY cares for them. How conscious do you think he is of this manipulation, and the dependency states he feeds off, and do you think he is SO deluded that he really believes stuff like that recent quote that it was all the mahatmas fault for the lord of the universe stuff.
Same goes for his organizational incompetence, know he always blames others, but do you believe that's the way he truly thinks.

All of these questions really relate to his degree of awareness, or not, around the social, organizational & psycho mind games he has always played

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Date: Sat, Oct 14, 2000 at 00:57:18 (GMT)
From: Michael Dettmers
Email: None
To: hamzen
Subject: Really appreciate your honesty and openess,
Message:

hamzen

These are really good questions – one’s that I have been reflecting on for some time. However, I don’t have the time to properly respond now. I will give them some further thought and get back to you sometime this weekend.

Michael

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Date: Sat, Oct 14, 2000 at 00:08:11 (GMT)
From: Cynthia G.
Email: None
To: Michael Dettmers
Subject: Thank you
Message:

Dear Michael,

I thank you for your courage and candor. I was just today thinking about the cult hierarchies.

You were in a much closer position than most and certainly more I ever was, even though I saw him so much at DECA. I appreciate your comments about it being a cult dynamic, which it is.

Your comments about the closing of ashrams also is very validating for me and I'm sure, many others here.

Thanks again, I hope you continue to communicate here.

Best,
Cynthia G.


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Date: Fri, Oct 13, 2000 at 23:13:38 (GMT)
From: Susan
Email: None
To: Michael Dettmers
Subject: the power of validation
Message:

It really helps to read this. Us humans really want to understand our lives and what occurs in them, and sharing and validating the feelings of so many who lived through this is so helpful.

Pretty cool we are living here in the year 2000 isn't it? If we had joined a cult in any other time in history there would have been no mechanism in place for us to network and tell our stories. The power of the information age.

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Date: Sat, Oct 14, 2000 at 02:51:41 (GMT)
From: Helen
Email: None
To: Susan/Michael
Subject: Susan, Michael
Message:

So true, Susan, well said! THIS is what the internet is for! I am fascinated by your interpretations of events, Michael. You put in pretty plainly when you said that M's thinking was 'It's so much easier in India!' That is priceless!

Poor Maharaji, we Americans made dumb, blind devotion so darn difficult!
Seriously though, thanks for your posts, they are great.
Helen

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Date: Fri, Oct 13, 2000 at 22:57:43 (GMT)
From: Joe
Email: None
To: Michael Dettmers
Subject: Wow...
Message:

Michael,

You know, it's strange. I had a similar experience reading your post as when I read one from another person, who posted as KK and was a finance person for Maharajio, when she said that, basically, Maharaji closed the ashrams because he felt they would become a financial burden, or at least wouldn't make as much money for him that they hed, and that the actual lives of the people in them were of no interest or concern to him whatsoever. We had dedicated our lives to him, but he completely and intentionallly failed to fulfill his part of the bargain. We always gave to Maharaji and he never gave anything back.

I had already come to the conclusion that Maharaji didn't give a toss about his devotees, and I felt that strongly and that was mainly why I couldn't follow him anymore, but somehow, even now, I still get this slightly sad feeling when it's confirmed by somebody like you who was actually around him. I mean, I guess there is still something inside of me that kind of hopes that Maharaji, this person I loved more than anything and dedicated everything to, really isn't as bad as every stick of evidence leads me to believe.

Thanks so much for your comments, Michael. They really are helpful.

Have a good weekend. I hope to. I'm headed to the Sierra, were we ALREADY have skiing thanks to early snows.

Joe

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Date: Fri, Oct 13, 2000 at 22:40:30 (GMT)
From: Jerry
Email: None
To: Michael Dettmers
Subject: You're a godsend, Michael
Message:

Really, your candor here puts to rest a lot of questions about the attitude of Maharaji, what his priorities were and why. Some people will say that your's is just one opinion of M, but I, personally, feel that it's accurate.

Thanks, again.

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Date: Fri, Oct 13, 2000 at 23:59:05 (GMT)
From: ham
Email: None
To: Jerry
Subject: And fits exactly all the other descriptions of him
Message:

that have leaked through, the guy is a complete egomaniac control freak who thinks the whole world exists to serve him in the lifestyle to which he's become accustomed, whatever the cost.

So where now is all the bullshit homage to god and shri hans, and service from the heart for the good of mankind, exactly where it always was, in the minds of premies and nowhere else.

Calls for another rolex watch, a new plane, a new blonde bimbo, another toke, another fag, some new people to abuse, and a bullshit stage show.

What a load of bollox.

And dontcha just know that he's exactly the kind of insecure, obnoxious multi-millionaire that none of us would want to spend a minute with in real life.

And I would still like to know the details of his practice in the bedroom that is so bizarre.

There must be someone out there who has been shagged by him who can spill the beans, by the sound of it there's no shortage of individuals who he's tried it on with.

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Date: Fri, Oct 13, 2000 at 22:18:50 (GMT)
From: Bin Liner
Email: None
To: Michael Dettmers
Subject: My responses to your additional questions
Message:

That was more interesting than the earlier efforts , keep it up.

 

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Date: Fri, Oct 13, 2000 at 22:09:07 (GMT)
From: Don't worry
Email: None
To: MD
Subject: Text will appear in a little while, by his grace.
Message:

nt

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Date: Fri, Oct 13, 2000 at 21:15:13 (GMT)
From: janet of venice
Email: None
To: michael and FA
Subject: wheres the text? i was highly interested
Message:

the thread shows, but theres no posting. what gives?

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Date: Fri, Oct 13, 2000 at 21:19:34 (GMT)
From: Jim
Email: None
To: janet of venice
Subject: Obviously he's got nothing further to say
Message:

Think, Janet, think.

(Good spacing this time, though!)

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Date: Fri, Oct 13, 2000 at 22:07:08 (GMT)
From: Jim
Email: None
To: Jim
Subject: Mike, it looks like you tried again but.....
Message:

you can't just hit 'submit' again. You have to copy and paste the text into a brand new post.

Hey, even that doesn't work sometimes in which case you just have to do it a third time. Oh well, it's still an indoors job.

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Date: Fri, Oct 13, 2000 at 22:19:45 (GMT)
From: janet of venice
Email: None
To: michael
Subject: try this as safety measure
Message:

try composing your response in an email you mail yourself first. that way you have hard copy. then use that received mail to ccp your response into a virgin posting page. if it fails, you can leave the area, come back, fresh, and paste it again.

< wonderful??

}}%^([

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Date: Fri, Oct 13, 2000 at 23:14:17 (GMT)
From: Sir Dave
Email: None
To: janet of venice
Subject: try this as safety measure
Message:

Or just write it in Windows Notepad and then save it as a file on your desktop such as temp.txt and then once it's saved, try pasting it into a forum post.

If it fails, you've still got it on your desktop to try again and even if there's a powercut, you won't lose it.

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Date: Sat, Oct 14, 2000 at 03:35:55 (GMT)
From: Tonette
Email: None
To: Sir Dave
Subject: Or is all else fails.....
Message:

You can just stuff it up your arse!

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